How things got to the current point.
I looked up a Nahuel. We laughed and played. I like hide'n'seek with him. We were even. I am fourteen now. We are like the best of friends but no one can know otherwise I will not be aloud to see him. I am not aloud friends other than Jake. I am only aloud Jake. No one else from the pack. Just him. It was rather irritating. I let Nauhal hug me and carry me around the way Jake tries before I push him off and Rose will grab him and lecture him through her teeth about how it is 'my choice'. They fight and Esme always gets Rose. Sam normally comes to get Jake at that time. Sometimes even Leah. I'ld like to speed my time with her or Seth rather Jake. But it isn't aloud. I couldn't go to school either. Well not yet. My growth is slowing rapidly. I am no longer ageing six years in one. Now it is slowing. Soon, maybe next year, it will be human rate. But Carlise said maybe. The first time I let Nauhal kiss me was on my fifteenth birthday. Later things got intense. Heated snogging sessions in the back of his car. I liked it. But it in the end would be my down fall. We had been dating a year and things went a bit further now. Touches here and there from time to time. I had to always shower so well to get his scent off. I came home in Jake's hoodie to mask the scent and ran directly upstairs. I ran into the bathroom to shower. I stripped and got in. I washed quickly knowing Jacob would arrive soon, not that that was a happy thought. I got out and dried off. Then I released I had forgotten my clothes. I had to run to my room in either a towel or get dressed. A towel was far more practical for this situation. I threw my clothes down the laundry shoot and walked quickly to my room. I got dressed quickly and the second the lock on the door was undone Jacob came in talking my ear off as normal but something was off. "So um....Nessie......do you think you maybe want to be my girlfriend?" My jaw literally hit the floor. He was like 27! I am only 16 as far as anyone is concerned. I was speechless. I guess he took this as a yes. He walked up to me and shoved his tongue down my throat. I froze. I didn't brush my teeth. He pulled away and threw me across the room breathing heavy and shaking. He tasted Nahuel. My family darted in but it was too late. He got me when he shifted. Right through my sweater. I looked down to see bloody gashes on my left arm. The were jagged and cover it completely as well as my sides. Emmet and Jasper held him and he shifted back horrified he had hurt me. He was crying now. "I'm so so sorry I love you Nessie." I stood up wobbly and walked over to him. I slapped him. I was now seething with all the strength I had left in me. "I hate you! Don't you understand. You are overbearing and a pervert. Your thoughts about me are disgusting. My mind link works both ways, dumb ass! And I hate it when you call me that! It sounds uneducated and childlike. I am not a fucking child anymore and I am certainly not your girlfriend!" I yelled. The my legs gave way. Everything went black. When I awoke everyone had to tell me the bad news. Nahual was dead. Jacob had gotten away and went and killed him. Then he killed himself. Everyone was so worried as they handed me a mirror. My eyes had drained of all color. Carlise had to conclude that this was part of the imprint breaking. Everything drained. My hair wasn't white or even blonde. It still held the bronze color but it was dull and now the curls had fallen out of it. I looked up and Rose told me not to cry. I was sobbing over Nahuel's death now because I hadn't even relieased it until she said that. Jacob's seemed almost deserved.
But now that was last year. Nothing was better. I felt like something was missing. Not someone anymore but something. Everyone left me alone. They worried but I needed space still. I hated what he did to me. I now had large scars on my. You couldn't see them with how I dressed though. Always and forever, even sleeping, I wore long fingerless gloves. I never went swimming no matter how hot it was or how much I wanted to. We lived on Esme Island now. Everyone had mutually decided that hiding me from the world would be easier if they didn't participate in the human world. I've never met a human. Now my match was gone and I had only ever known the Cullens. Now I guess this is when things start to pick up into my changed fate. The fact that I am now eighteen plays a big factor in what I do next. And it all starts with a missing boat.
