I only discovered that my thought processes are different when I was in sixth grade and my teacher told me. she called me a sociopath because I would not make eye contact and appeared not to be empathetic. she found something I wrote that described how I felt. she told me it was obsessive over feeling hurt at being bullied. that was 2010. I moved that summer having read about ADHD and discovering I was probably ADHD even though some things were worse than that. in seventh grade I discovered autism and recognised myself in its symptoms. I caught my mom on an autism parenting website and that clinched it.
I used to talk a lot. I used to talk about castles and knights and RMS Titanic and coral reefs and baseball or pokemon. I don't anymore. I barely talk since seventh grade. in sixth I wasn't made fun of because I didn't talk normally, I stuttered or got sentences mixed up. I was too good at other things. but I did in seventh. so I only talked to my teacher. I have since stopped stuttering, but still have a speech deficit. I don't mind. I can get my point across if I need to.
I am in highschool now. I speak, but not a whole lot unless you know me in which case you think I never shut up. I write. a lot. my notebook will tell you more than I ever will. I am on a swimming team and even though I don't talk, my coach talks to me. I mostly get quiet when I am nervous. this is so I do not have a meltdown which takes energy to prevent.
