People often think of me as a stereotypical white person,
I hate it.
I'm treated as a stupid nerd and can't stand it...
I am always letting people take advantage of me.
and I don't know why.
I'm always being pushed around by a bunch of dingles,
I have chairs pulled out from me so I fall and hit my head,
I am always being hurt in some kind of way and I'm sick of it.
Unfortunately, I can't do anything because I have no physical advantage over my "enemies"
So I have to act like it's all a cool game,
I understand that I am friends with many people but, I'm questioning...
"Are they really my friends?"
"Would they even care?"
I say this from the tears coming down as I write this...
I... am... sick... of... this...
Everything in life is good for me, but... why?
I'm surrounded by so many stupid...
(I don't even know what to come up with as an insult"
I've done a lot of thinking this weekend...
I don't know what to do.
I try to act goofy and nice, I can be a —— sometimes but doesn't everyone?
I just want to say one thing to the people who treat others like they treat me...
Really?
What pleasure do you receive for doing this?
What personal gain do you get?
To the victims like me:
There is hope, friends that know.
Friends that will understand...
Don't be afraid to tell them about it.
Honestly if you are this far into reading this chapter, Thank you... You really care...
I'm usually not an emotional person so it's a first time doing this.
