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You paced your floor, the same floorboard creaking every for steps you took. You were counting them. You and Juice had some similarities, such as compulsive ticks, experimenting with drugs that you shouldn't and some mental struggles. At times it was a strength, support to talk to someone who knows just what you're feeling and knows how to talk to you. But then it can tear you both down, either when high and not knowing what you say, fights over little things only you two would have an issue with.
Juice hadn't been home after a long day for the boys. He hadn't called or anything. He had become different with all the tension between him and Jax but he just skimmed the surface of it and you knew you didn't know the half of it. Even though he had been different he didn't change on you, so not coming home was a problem.
1, 2, 3, 4, creak, 1, 2, 3- your phone rings snapping you out your pace. Quickly answering the unknown number you press your phone up to your ear.
"Hello?" You say.
"I saw your number in Juices phone and I'm assuming you two are close. I'm Nero, I just found Juice overdosed on Oxy at Diosa"
"Oh fuck, fuck" you cursed, kicking the wall before turning on your heel to get into your car "I'm-I'm coming"
Your hands shook as you tried to put the keys in the ignition. You were taking deep breaths to try and help your panicked state. You sped to the destination after quickly throwing it into your GPS. Juice kept you away from club business so Nero's name was brought up and so was Diosa but nothing in depth. You opened the doors and had no clue where to go.
"You know where Nero is? He uh, he just called me to come over" you asked the closest girl around.
"He's handling some personal stuff right now" she said politely as she was probably told.
"The guy that overdosed is my husband" you put up your left hand.
"Oh, oh I'm sorry. Follow me" She perked up and led the way, instantly feeling guilty. She opened the door and you saw the scene.
Juice was curled up into a ball on the ground, a trash can of vomit by his head and you were guessing Nero was looking over him on the bed.
"Gemma was here but she had to go so I offered to call you for her. We got him to throw up most of what he had, his liver is takin a hit right now though. He's gonna he shaking, vomiting, sweating and in pain for at least the rest of tonight" he explained.
"Do you um, do you have Benadryl? Help him sleep maybe" you asked, pushing a hair behind your ear.
"Yeah, I'll be right back" he nodded and left.
You dropped to your knees by Juices torso. You ran a hand over his head, the short hair prickling your palms. You leaned down to his head and put your forehead on his.
"Juice" you whispered.
"I didn't mean it, I wasn't trying to kill myself. I just wanted it to stop, the feelings, the guilt and the shame. I-I just need the voices to stop or at least be quieter" he rambled, his jaw shaking and eyes flowing with tears.
Nero came in and quickly handed you the Benadryl. He got a feeling you had it from here and left quietly but telling him what direction he was going in if she needed him.
"I know, baby. I just," You opened the bottle of Benadryl and poured him a cap full for him "I can't lose you and this shit, I could've lost you for his shit" you sat him up so you could give him the meds "I know we like to have fun and try shit but you weren't thinking"
He nodded quietly and moaned in pain. You helped lift him up, putting your arms underneath his and lifting him up onto the bed as best you could. You put the trash can by the top of the bed.
"Do you want the blanket?" You asked.
He nodded and you put it over him and then got in next to him. You held him from behind, kissing his shoulder blades.
"I love you so much so when you're hearing all those voices, I need you to hear mine too"
"I'll try, I'm just so sorry. I didn't mean this, I didn't wanna hurt you y/n. You know I wouldn't ever do that on purpose" he cried "I love you"
"I know, Juice. Just, take deep breaths and try to let that Benadryl kick in. If your get tired, take the sleep because then there aren't any voices or any pains. I'll be right here all night"
