The Unexpected

Chapter 2:

I finally decided it was time for me to get out of the house and find a job. When Beau passed I had decided to quit my job because mentally I wasn't capable of having a job and being a single mother while trying to mourn my husband's death. It was all just too much to have to deal with too fast. Thank goodness for my mom though. She helped me when I mentally wasn't strong enough to do it. I don't think I could have made it through everything without her. 

The therapist told me that I needed to take better care of myself. When Beau passed I was in a dark place. I couldn't eat or sleep. Getting up to take a shower was a rarity. Once a week if I was lucky. My hair stayed in a messy bun and I never wore anything but pajamas. I would sit on the couch and look through photo albums that took me back to the time I once was happy. I kept our wedding video on replay. I never could make it through without bursting into tears. The thing that broke me to my core was seeing the three photos on the wall of Beau the day each of our children were born. Knowing that not only did I have to live without my husband but three sweet babies had to live without their father. 

I managed to get out of bed and take a shower, brush my teeth, and fix my hair and put on my best clothes so that I could go to a job interview. I really needed this. I needed to surround myself with other people so I didn't have to constantly wallow in self pity. Not only did I need this but the kids needed this. They need a mother who has herself put together and could make a living for us. 

School is due to start in a couple of weeks. My job interview is at the kids school as a teacher's assistant. This job just felt perfect as this year will be Gavin's third year but Henry's first. Lily will stay with my mom at our house during the day. My mom came over to watch the kids while I went to my interview. 

I made my way to the SUV that Beau surprised me with for our anniversary. He had surprised me with a 2018 chevy equinox, two weeks before he passed. Remembering how happy we were that day replays in my mind every time I get behind the wheel. 

I pulled up to the school and gathered myself before I walked inside. I walked into the office and was greeted by a young lady named Hope. After a brief conversation she told me that I was one of the nicest people she had met. I could feel fate in the air. I had no doubt that I would get this job because for the first time in months I actually had hope. 

Principal Williams called my name and I walked into his bright, book filled office. He had two black leather seats sitting in front of his desk. I walked over to one of the chairs and took a seat. 

"Mrs Parker", principal Williams began as he pulled his glasses up on his nose. I see that you graduated from Columbia University with a bachelors in early childhood education?" 

"Yes sir. I graduated about six years ago." I responded while biting my lip, which is something I do when I'm nervous.

"Mrs Parker, why do you think you would be a good asset to our school and why do you want this job?" He looked up at me with a furrowed brow. 

"I want this job because I love teaching. I love helping children learn. I think I would be a good asset because I love what I do sir." He reached out to shake my hand and let me know that if I get the job I would hear something in a week. 

I walked out of his office and made my way back to the SUV. Before heading home I decided to take the road that Beau had his accident on. I hadn't been on that road since hearing of the accident, the night he passed. Someone had put a wooden cross on the side of the road. It even had his name etched on it. Beau was a well known man in our community and every one that knew him loved him.

I had to take one last stop before heading home. I had to visit Beau's final resting place. I found myself wandering there often. I visited him for his birthday, let the kids visit him for their birthdays to spend time with daddy, I came every time I needed to cry, and I will find myself coming back on our special day. It's where I feel I can talk to him even if I know he can't hear me.