The girl who was everything.

Ajay.

 I just finished my video call with Ajay. For the first time in the past few weeks, the distance is unbearable. I want to hug him and tell him that he is going to be fine. I want to be near him and listen to him cry his heart out. I want him to know that he is the best person ever and that any girl would be lucky to have him. Sometimes, things don't work out but that doesn't mean it'll never. Some people aren't meant to be together. I wanted to tell him all of this but he was in no state to listen. There's this girl he likes and he told me about her. The first time he told me, he said it was just a crush. And then as days went by he fell in love with her. To him every conversation with her was fascinating. The world through her eyes was breathtakingly beautiful. I listened to every detail he told me about her. I kept asking him to tell her how he felt. I pushed him over the edge and I regret it. Maybe he wasn't ready... Maybe she wasn't ready. Either way, he is now heartbroken and I'm too far away to do anything about it.

He has always been a nervous talker. He takes his time to settle down. He likes talking about bridges and buildings and the history behind them. He is a passionate writer whose stories usually don't see the light of the day because of his unwillingness to realize that they are good enough. His mind is an intricately woven maze full of beautifully crafted thoughts and I wish the world gets to see that one day.

There are certain things in this world that you've no control over. You can choose the person you want to love but not the person you want to be loved by. The best thing to do is to respect each others' feelings and move on. I know it is easier said than done but that is the right way to look at things. You cannot force somebody to be your friend or your partner. Those things just happen.

I do not want him to go through this alone. I don't want him to drown himself in the ocean of regret and disdain. One might wonder what the big deal is! Why is it difficult to cope when a person you love rejects you? Why can't you just move on? I've wondered the same. There is no right answer to be honest.

When you fall in love, it changes something from within. You are not just you anymore, you become something more. And I know that he felt that. She reminded him of all the good in the world and in her he found happiness. In her he found magic and magnificence and in her he found home.

Letting her go will not be easy. It'll take every ounce of his strength but he is one of the bravest people I know. I know that she'll always have a place in his heart. The next time I call him I'm going to tell him that he did not do anything wrong. He cannot think that he isn't good enough, because he truly is. Sometimes, you find yourself through love. And sometimes, you forget who you really are because you gave too much of yourself to the other. But it always teaches you something. Build yourself with that. That is the only way to pay homage to all the beautiful emotions that it put you through.