Being alone doesn't mean your lonely (POEM)

Being alone doesn't mean you're lonely

I don't understand how humans can hurt each other so much and not feel one tiny ounce of resentment about it.
I don't understand how some parents don't love their children
I don't understand how people who have kids would die for them before they even know their name.
I don't understand why I cry
I don't understand how people just make something and completely abandon it.
        - It's like keeping a dog in a cage and only giving it food and water.
Humans need physical contact.
It's scientifically proven that hugging someone or something, or a smile even , releases endorphins , serotonin , and dopamine.
Feel good chemicals make sad people feel good.
And I think I may be one of those sad people
And I may feel lonely but I'm not alone and it makes me angry
It makes me so upset and uncomfortable to know that I can't be comfortable around other people
That my brain shuts down within arms distance between me and another
I can not walk, into a room full, of people,
Because me walking into that room would be defined as capital punishment.
And it's a lot easier to be vulnerable when you can't see what it is you're trying to avoid.
And everyday is the same.
It's like talking to your brother about your soon to be nephew
Only he's talking at you about his unborn child while you sit there trynna figure out if this is the way it's supposed to be.
And it makes me angry
I'm so angry.
But I can't get it out

There's no one to talk to so I write.
I sit and I ramble on about shit that most will never understand and I'm happy they don't go through it but I just wish they knew.

Being alone doesn't mean you're lonely.