Love.Hate.Destroy! (A Mindless Tale) COMING SOON!

Not so Prince Charming.....

Love cease to exist in my world.  Not because I was heartless but because I let the fear of weakness strike me out. Sometimes I want to borrow his love but why do so? When he questioned my love for him I grew bitter;cold. It was like drowning alive. I'm screaming, hurting,begging him for mercy. No you, No me just the shadows I see. No savior, Hell Mary who's gonna rescue me? The same dream haunted my brain once again the next night....Now here I lay deep in my thoughts......Why am I so caught up on him. I know his face, I know his name but I don't know him. This is so crazy. I keep seeing him in my dreams and everytime.....My thoughts were interrupted by Shen'...

I stood up in my bed as I shouted "What's wrong with me?" Shen' invited herself into my room as she did this I shot her a look of confusion. "Why must you yell like an imbecile?," she asked. I looked at her like she was a bizarre creature. This women knew how to really get under my skin. The mere sight of her made my blood boil. Yet in had so much respect for her. Water is fresher then blood anyway. She snapped at me as if I were a dog. A smile took over my face. I nodded answering her. "I do this because I love you", she said "I know Shen'," I cut her off.. "Okay," she said. The look in her eyes told me she wanted to talk but my instinct told me to just leave it alone. "To school you go",she joked. "I hate that hell hole", I thought to myself...

I cant seem to get a grip on what my dream was about. It attacked at my mind all day and night. I couldn't help but wonder why my thoughts had always somehow made it's way to him. It was kind of annoying but you learn to manage after a while. For all I know the dream could be unnecessary or even just completely made up. I don't really want to know what it means but my mind is playing games with me. I don't really like this but what am I to do. I am left to no resort. 

  Staring into your eyes i see myself

I stare at you as you stare at me

I wonder if your trying to read my mind.....

Wondering whats going through my head.....

Trying to read my body language....

But then i look away...

Its only because i dont want you to see my soul....

Your eyes.....

They read me like an open book...

They look past all of my walls and see that little girl....

That little girl people rarely see....

Thats how you always get to me...

Thats why i dont look in your eyes for so long....

You can stare into my eyes and read me like a book.....

Sometimes the smile fades because of you....

Its only because i realize your eyes are staring deep into me...

Deep in my soul....

Going past all those walls i tried so hard to keep up....

But you can get through with ease....

Like it was nothing....

I dont even know how you do it....

But sometimes....

Just sometimes i let you....

I let you read me....

Look deep down in my soul....

And pick out my flaws

Pick out my perfections

And find what you love most about me....

Because for some reason....

I can let you do all of these things without judging me.....

For some strange reason you love all my flaws.....

My rotten holes that i try to cover up.....

You could get pass all of that and still whisper the words.....

I love you.....

And there he was raping my mind like always...

Taking over my dreams...

In my dream....

That's just it ....

It is just a dream...

I opened the doors of Black Lake High and turn around to wave to my mother. I inhale and close my eyes the. I slowly reopened my eyes and began my stroll to Bio. In that exact moment a guy ran full speed into me. "Watch where your going dickhole", I snarled. He lifted up his head and looked me in the eyes. We both froze and I uncomfortably brushed myself off before storming down the hall.

IT WAS HIM!