Sincerely those who have hurt me

Dear ex

Lately I've been thinking about a lot, and you were in the mix of what I call "a lot". So I was thinking about our relationship we had, how much you told me that I was the beginning and the end and how you would love me forever, even though forever wasn't really as long as I thought.
It's funny how quick feelings have changed and people have grown apart.
Do you remember when we first met? Yeah... middle school. What fun times, the days were filled to the brim with laughs and sun. It was a time where the only thoughts in our heads was who was asking us to the dance, or who was holding hands in the hallways.
I remember 9th grade, I had a crush on you for so long and I finally gathered the courage to tell you. I swallowed my anxiety and I let loose. I remember how my heart fluttered with feelings as you smiled and told me "I thought you would never say those words". I was so.... happy.....
We dated, we kissed, we lifted our heads and smiled at the people who told us it was wrong. I mean in a small neighborhood full of people who don't know the meaning of being hungry? Of corse they were going to tell us that two girls dating was wrong. Maybe... maybe you gave into them, maybe you thought they were right. Or maybe... maybe it was me.
Did I smile weird, was my laugh too loud? Was I too attached? I really, really did like you, a lot.  Maybe it's all in my head. I guess you really never felt the same. It's ok, I forgive you. Even if you were a compulsive lier, ignored me when I called, and told me I was too overbearing. I won't hold a grudge, but my trust will, and it has...
Love, your ex...