Jack Avery | Secret love

12.

Taylor's P.O.V

It's around 1am now and all the boys are asleep, but I'm lying awake on jack's bed just staring up at the roof. I haven't stopped thinking about Jack. It's not like I want to think about him, I just can't help it.

I keep asking myself questions like 'where could he be?' or 'who is he with?' And I know it's none of my business but for some reason I need to know.

I was finally beginning to drift off to sleep until I heard a loud bang coming from downstairs. My first thought was that we were being robbed but then I heard someone yell "ow!" And I immediately knew who it was.

I got up out of bed and walked downstairs to find a drunken, fallen over Jack on the floor with a beer in his hands. "Oh my god" I whispered as I ran over to him to see if he was hurt.

Taylor stop why do you care so much? He's probably just using you so go back to bed!

When I reached him I bent down on my knees, lifted his head up and looked over him until my eyes were staring into his, some of my hair had fallen in front of my face from bending down so jack placed down his beer and grabbed my hair and softly put it behind my ear.

"Your beautiful Taylor" he said looking into my eyes. I looked at him for what felt like forever and it was silent for a little while until I finally came to my senses, "come on let's get you up to bed" I said as I stood up and began trying to pick him up.

"Jack stand up I can't carry you by myself" I whispered in struggle as I tried picking him up of the ground because he was not helping me at all.

"Here I've got it" I heard someone whisper from behind me and I turned around to see Jonah walking my way. "Thanks Jo" I smiled and stepped aside so he could pick jack up.

"Oh and who might this be" Jack said as he was picked up by Jonah and tried to look and see who it was in the dark. When he finally got a glimpse of Jonah's face he spoke up "ohhh it's lover boy" he said "he's come to your rescue has he?" This time adding a giggle on the end.

"Jack shut up your drunk, you don't know what your saying" I said walking over to him as he was now standing up and Jonah and I were standing opposite him. "No I know exactly what I'm saying baby girl. your mine and no one else's okay?" He whispered so Jonah wouldn't hear and grabbed my waist to pull me closer to him.

"what?" Jonah exclaimed as he stepped closer to try and hear what jack had said, "oh nothing he just asked if he could go to bed" I lied once again.

I feel like lately all I've been doing is lying.

"Okay you grab one side and I'll grab the other" Jonah said as jack wrapped one arm around Jonah's shoulder and the other around mine and we helped him walk upstairs to his bedroom.

Jonah and I placed jack under the covers and he began taking his shirt and jeans off leaving him in just his boxer shorts. "Wait where are you gonna sleep Tay?" Jonah whispered as we started walking out of jack's bedroom.

"It's okay I'll take the couch" I said with a smile, "Uh are you sure" he said worried "yeah it'll be fine Jo go get your beauty sleep" I said hugging him and as we were hugging I whispered into his ear "thank you" and we pulled apart from the hug and he said "your welcome" Before walking out of jack's room into his and closing the door. I looked back at jack lying in bed and sighed.

I don't know how long I can continue doing this.

I started to walk out the door when I heard jack yell out to me "wait! Taylor". I took my hand of the handle to his closed door and turned around to face him. "What's wrong jack" I sighed.

"Where do you think your going?" He said sternly, "to sleep on the couch", "not your not" he said angrily, "last time I checked you don't own me Jack so yes, I am" I said as I spun back around, and before I knew it jack's hand was on the back of the door and i turned to reveal an almost naked jack staring down at me.

Great we're back in this intimidating position again. And even worse he's almost naked!

I was leaning against the back of the door and he was cornering me against it yet again, but I just looked down in fear as he looked down at me trying to meet with my eyes.

"i SAID no, your not" he said emphasising the said. When he said this his warm breath sent a shiver down my spine and I looked up into his eyes.

"I can smell the alcahol on you and it's disgusting" I said standing up straight attempting to play hard to get. He didn't say anything he just walked over to the bed in guilt.

It's almost like he knows what he's doing to himself is bad and he feels ashamed whenever he's around me. I can feel it.

He didn't even drag me over to the bed with him and make me sleep there, he just gave up and walked over and got into bed. I looked at him in shame and began to feel pitty for him. Which I hate myself for doing. But I did.

So I walked over to his bed and hoped in next to him pulling the sheets over us. He was laying on his side facing the middle of the bed and I was doing to same, so our faces were just inches away from each other.

He tangled our legs together and had an arm around my waist. We stared into each other's eyes for which felt like a whole hour but in reality was only a couple of minutes. Until jack closed his eyes and pulled me closer to him and I did the same but burried me head into the crook of his neck.

"I love you Taylor" he whispered.

Wait what?

I continued to lie there with my eyes shut in shock. I was speechless and didn't know what to say. "Goodnight Jack" I whispered back cuddling up closer to him. Before we both dozed off to sleep

Jack just told me he loved me. And me being my dumb ass self didn't say it back. It's okay tay don't beat yourself up you probably wouldn't have meant it if you said it back anyways right?

He's drunk anyway he won't remember any of this tomorrow...