Willing (a cancer survival story)

2. Facing hardships

William

The doctor just told me that my daughter was diagnosed with leukemia. I'm not sure what on earth am I feeling right now. All I know is that my eyes were wet with tears and yes that was my reaction. I have no idea what I'm going to do with all of this since I can't even process the information. 

"I truly understand what you are going through and and if you can't tell her mother or whatever, you can just give me her number and I'll call her," Doctor Emma said with loving tenderness as if she had known me for years.

I just shook my head and spoke slowly "Her mother abandoned us when she was a baby. She's all I have and you need to help me. I can't keep loosing everyone I love," we were both quiet for a minute untill I released what a fool I was for bragging like that " Umm, I'm sorry. You wouldn't want to hear all of that".

My eyes were tearing up and I couldn't look at her. I looked at jane instead. She was sitting in a corner eating up the chocolate that emma gave her. She was very happy not knowing what her life, and that if she'll have one,  would be like.

"What are the chances of survival?" I asked Emma

"50%. She either gets fully cured or... ehm I have booked a new appointment tomorrow morning if that's fine with you.The earlier we start the treatment, the better. Everything is going to be alright.You gotta stay strong for your girl" She got something out of her pocket "and here's my card incase you need anything."

I thanked doctor Emma and I went back home. I got icecream on my way home because icecream is the cure for shattered souls. Man that's deep. Jane and I ate icecream and then we both went to sleep. Maybe if I wake up tomorrow, all of this will turn out to be just a dream.

Emma

After I finished all my appointments, I headed back home. Today was the longest day of my life. I took a quick cold shower and fixed myself a meal and headed to bed.

I couldn't stop thinking about John and why his wife/girlfriend would abandon him and his daughter. He's swedish but he speaks perfect English. Did he beat up his wife or were they broke or maybe she's a heartless bitch?

How did he take care of Jane all these years without someone by his side. Oh but of course he has a mother but maybe she's in Sweden or maybe she's dead or ugh. Over thinking will be the death of me. I watched TV for 10 minutes and drifted off to sleep. 

Over thinking will be the death of me.