Saving me (Jacob Whitesides)

Saving me (Jacob Whitesides fanfic)

I'm slowly dieing inside.. 

"Hurt myself again today and the worst part is there's no one else to blame..."

I listen to this song to much I swear

"Ouch. I have lost myself again lost myself and I'm nowhere to be found..."

"Be my friend hold me wrap me up unfold me I am small...and needy...warm me up...and breathe me..." 

What's wrong with me..?

Something is wrong with me...

"No."  the voice in my head always trys to argue with me...

"No i don't you're always wrong."

 No you're not Adria. I try to think to myself...

"Ha. Do you think by you saying your own name it will help you? Adria you are always wrong and you have always been wrong."

No. This is stupid I'm having a convosation with a voice that isnt even real?

"Oh. Adria that's so sweet of you... you don't think I'm real... well I am."

just ignore it and it will go away Adria.... i thought to myself.

i was shocked because it worked it went away.... or at least for the time being.

i started to walk downstars from my room. My mom always says "why don't you come join the famliy?" but i always go down there and then i get insulted by my family... i mean i know its all jokes and stuff but sometimes I'm just not in the mood for jokes. soo i end up going back upstairs. 

"oh look who came downstairs and i didn't even have to tell her to come like usual!!?? it's Adria..."my mom said as i got to the last step that lead into the kitchen. 

"are you okay? are you sick? what's wrong with you? what's wrong with my baby girl?" my dad was sitting at the kitchen table. he's always the smartass around my house. i mean don't get me wrong my dad is probably my favorite person on this whole earth. he's the good kind of smartass i guess you would say. my dad knows me he knows everything about me. he knows that i dont like when people just leave there shoelaces untied when they are walking. he what the names are to ALL my celeb crushes. he just knows me more than anyone does. hes a pretty funny guy. he makes me laugh probably more then anyone. there is only one thing he doesnt know about me. 

the voices. 

no one knows about the voices in my head... no one at all. not even my bestfriend Faith.

i will tell you more about faith later on in the story.

but my dad yeah hes cool. 

"yes yes i know i know im here and you didnt even have to tell me." i said. i wanted to come up with some smartass comment but sometimes i cant.

"sooooo" dad said.

"guess where we are going!?" mom sounded a little to happy.

"UGH" dad said.

"oh no.... where are we going.???"

"a TOUR!!!"  my mom said and i wondered if it was the tour i was talk and asking and practally begging for her to take me to. 

"what!???"

"well since your birthday is coming up i figured we might as well......." mom was cut off by me screaming. 

"MOM ARE WE REALLY GOING TO SEE THEMMMMMMMMMM????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

"YES WE ARE GOING TO SEE ALL YOUR BOY!!!!!"

"AHHHHHHHHH WE ARE GOING TO SEE JACOB WHITESIDES!!!!!!!???????"

i couldnt believe what i was hearing. 

i am in love with Jacob Whitesides!