My Hot Coach

Chapter 8

Demi's ( Diane ) POV

Flasback...

I woke up not feeling good its like something bad is going to happen, but i shook my head trying to remain positive, Went for a quick shower, get dressed and headed straight to studio.

As an artist its your job to make your fans happy, I gave my 100% best on every performances, I don't want my fans "my lovatics" to be disappointed, I wanted them to know that each and everyone of them are special and beautiful in their own way. In every m&g's I tried to put up my biggest smile in front of the camera as much as possible.

I'm not complaining I love what I'm doing, I love performing in front of people, to be able to share my music to them, to inspire others that whatever they're going through in life there's always light at the end of the tunnel, for them to stay strong and believe to themselves.

being an artist that doesn't mean i'm shield on every problems in life, i'm also human i get hurt, i made mistakes and also need time for myself to think and know what's good for me.

In the studio..

I'm trying to write some song but my mind was so fucked up, its frustrating i can't write or worst i can't even start writing, its like my mind was completely blank,
i don't know what's happening with me ffs..

Natalie - demi are you okay? you don't seemed focus, Can you record songs today? See they're songs written for you, we just have to work a little bit on the melody and our management team are already discussing to start recording your 5th album.

yes natalie i'm fine, just got lots of things in mind, maybe just a bit tired. but aren't they taking things too fast i mean i'd love to start my 5th album i know my lovatics are going to be crazy when they found out about it but natalie i don't think i'm ready, see i'm trying to write but i don't seemed to get my shits going, i can't write good songs and i want my 5th album to be even more special and i don't wanna rush things about it.

see natalie, i don't know what's happening with me right now, i feel empty don't get me wrong i love music, music is my life but right now i don't feel completely happy, yes i got everything, the fame, luxurious things i'm still enjoying touring, seeing my lovatics happy it brought joy in my life, they've been my rock, they stood by my side on the darkness part of it, they never left me, they keep on supporting me on every decisions that i made, but kinda need a break from all of this. there's something missing with me, i need to find myself just give me some time

okay i understand i'll try to talk to them about it dems over the meeting but can you atleast try to record some of the songs that they already written for you. Natalie said

thanks for considering it, i went inside the recording booth and start singing the songs that they wanted for me to sing. while singing i was cut by troy

wooah! demi stop stop right there.! your off on most keys and you can't hit the high notes, what's the matter dems, this was the first time i heard you sound like this. i think your voice is way too tired, do you want us to continue next session?

i'm sorry.. that's all i uttered to come out, this is not me what seems to be the problem, i'm damn confused what's going on??... i'm trying not to cry but i failed to hold my tears up, i begin to sob uncontrollably.

"You're not good enough, can't you see your fucking things up again, such a loser! you're a failure.. "

all my demons are coming back and this time, I immediately stormed fast out the door i grabbed my chanel bag and headed towards parking lot