Unconnected

I wish.

I wish...
I wish it was as easy starting to dislike you as it was liking you.
Just a smile, a shy glance and I was done for. It happened as naturally as a change in season. It was like spring. Blooming flowers, sweet smells, tantalising feeling; it made my whole being come alive. I felt like a superhero for those few moments. With my cape waving like a flag, I flew unchained, on top of the world.
I wish it was as easy getting over you as it was falling for you.
I fall asleep with you on my mind; wake up with a smile because I thought of you. Everything I see, I associate with you. The sunrise reminding me of your smile, the moon of your ability to see light at the end of the tunnel.
I wish it was as easy finding your flaws as it was accepting them.
Being inwardly upset by the derogatory jokes, eventually accepting that's who you are. The awkward moments of silence where I often hid my red face, the irritating grin at scoring better than I did.
I wish it was as easy letting go of you as it was leaning on you.
Standing by my side when I was unsure, didn't you ever get tired of holding me up? Brought a smile to my face when I was about to cry. Even when I was so close to giving up, you gave me hope.
I wish it was as easy to stop thinking of you as it was thinking of you in the first place.

S.