Coincidence

Chapter 15

Shawn's POV.

I haven't seen Hailee in three days and I'm about to go crazy. After our heavy kiss at the Laser Tag place haven't I been able to stop thinking about it. It's like I'm obseesed after one kiss. That one kiss left me wanting for more. I'm just happy that I get to see her today -finally. I'm leaving New York soon and I don't know what to do. I miss my family but I also want to have more time to spend with Hailee. 

But I won't think about that yet, today I just wanna enjoy the time I have with her. She told me in a text that this time we could go for dinner because I had been so good last time. I'm on my way to pick her up, it turns out that my apartment is only 15 minutes walk from hers. I'm bringing her to one of my favorite places here. The food is amazing but not that many knows about it since it's down in a basement and look a little sketchy like you would get food poisoning from their food. I walk with my head down so people won't recognize me. When I'm at her door do I press the buzzer and waith for her to let me in.

"Who is it?" Her smooth voice comes muffled out from the speaker.

"Shawn, can you let me in?" I have the biggest smile on my face just because I know she's only a few floors above me.

"Sorry, I don't know any Shawn. Try another place." 

"What? Hailee, come on." I beg her, but if I beg her because I wanna get into the building and out of the public or because I can't wait to kiss her I don't know. Probably the last.

"Hmm.. Do you have something I want?" I can imagine her smug face behind the speaker.

"You bet I do." Or I hope.

"Well if you do I better let you in." I hear the small buzz from the door meaning that I can open it up now. I take the stairs two steps at a time to get to third floor. When I get up there is the door open a little bit inviting me to get inside so I do. 

Her apartment look nothing like I thought it would. Her walls are colorful with beautiful pictures on them. I expected the pictures and the colorful walls, Hailee doesn't seem like a person who would paint them white or grey. Want I didn't expect was the baby in her arms. I know I haven't known her for that long but I feel like I should know if she had a kid. 

"Uhm hey?" I don't know what to say. 

"Hey." She throw me a big smile and I catch my self smiling back at her even tho my brain is super confused. The baby takes her attention away from me when it starts pulling her hair.

"Gustav that hurts." She gently untangle the babys fingers from her hair. The baby isn't happy about it and soon I see that baby put one of his hands down her shirt. The baby soon snuggle into her chest stille with one hand down there. I haven't moved away from the door yet, the door isn't even closed. I'm just standing there staring at her and Gustav. It's crazy because I'm kind of jealous of Gustav since he can just put his hand down there. I wanna do that too but we are not there yet. How inappropriate of me. There is a baby in the room after all.

"Shawn?" I shake my head when I hear Hailee's voice calling my name.

"Yeah?"

"Can you please close the door?" I close the door behind me and take a step into her apartment. Hailee disappears into another room and when she get's back is Gustav gone.

"So you have a baby?" I don't try to sound judgemental I'm just confused.

"Is it a problem if I do?" She crunch her brows together and cross her arms around her chest in a defensive manner. I walk over to her and uncross her arms, I keep her hands in mine. Finally I can touch her, I can immediately feel my body relax a little.

"No. I just wish you had told me." I tell her truthfully. I get rewarded with one of her small smiles. I wanna kiss her but I hold my self back for a little longer, I don't wanna scare her again even tho we have kissed before do I never know how she reacts.

"Good." Her eyes move away from mine and down to my mouth. Okay so Hailee want me to kiss her. She doesn't need to ask me twice. I move my head slowly closer to hers so she have time to take a step back in case I read her wrong. But she just stands still. When my lips touch hers do my hand move automatically to her hips and hers up around my neck. First it's small pecks but I wanna taste more of her. I lick her lips in a signal to open her mouth for me which she does. My tongue taste hers. I don't know how long we are captured in each other like this but I get out of the fog when Gustav starts crying. Hailee rush into the room she put him to get him to stop. I just stand there I don't know what to do I'm obsessed with Hailee but I don't know if I can handle a baby right now. I want to stay with her but I also want to do the right thing for her family. I'm going back to Canada soon and at some point she's going to realize that I'm not good enough for her. I can't be here like another guy can, a guy with normal job. At some point I'm going to travel the world again I'm going to go on tour, I'm gonna be at interviews and TV shows I'm not even going to be in New York. So how can I be enough for her?

A comes out again without the baby.

"Sorry about that. He's supposed to go to sleep now but he have a hard time without his mom." Hailee shrugs her shoulders.

"We can reschedule if you want to? So you can go be with him make it easier for him to sleep?" I don't know when we should have the time for a second date since I'm leaving in four days and don't know when I will be back. 

"No I wanna spend my night with you. But do you mind staying here?" She looks nervously at me. But what she doesn't know is that I love staying in. I will rather stay in than go out most of the time. This way I'm sure nobody will get in the way of us -except for Gustav maybe but that's okay. 

"Not at all. But are you sure you don't want me to leave?"

"Yeah. Cassie will be back in a few hours and then we can go out if you want to. But for now I can order some takeaway and put on a movie?" She looks hopefully up at me.

"Cassie? Who's that?" I scrunch my brows together in confusion.

"Oh! I didn't tell you didn't I?" I'm still confused.

"Cassie is Gustavs mom. She's one of my colleagues and she got a gig last minute and came by to ask if I could babysit. I couldn't get my self to say no when she knocked on my door. You see she lives in the apartment upstairs so I'm the most convenient for her." Hailee rolled her eyes of that. I was relieved. This made it easier. I didn't need to feel bad for not being able to be here for her AND Gustav. Now I could just feel bad not to be able to be here for her, that's bad enough but better than two people. 

"You forgot to tell me that tiny detail."