Thug Love ( Book 3 ) ~ YBN Nahmir

Chapter 11 ~ Family

Harmony POV

Yeah man .

I gotta distance myself from everybody for a while .

Everything bad is happening wit my family right now & the shit Manny did ?

Is just putting me through hell .

It's weird cause , he said he ain't ever gone change on me but now I really gotta realize niggas ain't shit man .

Now I just gotta focus on myself & do me all alone .

I don't want no help from nobody , I don't want courage from nobody & ion want advice from nobody .

I got myself & at the moment that's all I need .

Right now , I'm packing my stuff .

No , I'm not leaving Alabama ..

I'm just not finna stay in Birmingham .

I gotta move around & honestly I just wanna go to NYC ( New York City )

I don't even wanna live here no more man like , it's too miserable & depressing .

I wanna be a  bad bitch & live my life away from all my problems .

Not that I'm running away from my problems but I just .. I wanna be peaceful & live how I wanna live without nobody worrying or messing with me .

When the time comes , it'll come .. 

I just wish , the time was now ..

I really been going through it & I wanted somebody to be by my side & be there for me .. but I had to later learn in life , nobody in life is gonna be there for you .

Never .

Not even if you think ya'll bond is tight as hell , their not down .

Just wish , My Dad was still here 💔😔

That was my real soulmate , when everything was down on me .. 

He made it better man & I just wish a man can come into my life & take his spot since he's not here 

This hurts & yeah I know Manny living life good & stuff but damn .. Somehow wish I could crush his life just like he did mines .

" You okay ? "

My Sister was helping me pack all my stuff .

" Not really , but I'm a big girl . Ima make it "

" I just want the best for you Harmony and I know shit been rough lately but be strong for me "

" That's exactly why I'm moving . I can't do it here Hazel , I can't have all my problems ina way while I'm trying to achieve my goals "

" I think that's the best choice Har .. Just be the big girl that you are and find somebody out there that's better then that hairy useless nigga "

I ain't laugh , it wasn't even funny 😒

" Dad is looking down at us , he wants us to be the best we can . Just do it for Dad Harmony and please Baby Sister , never settle for less "

That hit me really toughly ..

' Never Settle for less '

Was all my mind was on .

' Never settle for less '

.. 

I just hope everybody in the world is doing what they love & being with somebody they love ..