Stay With Me

(6)

We were inside the cafe with our food as I stared at the wall. I could feel some of them watch me. Jin was opposite me and Jimin was sat next to me. I sighed as I rested my head on my hand, watching the wall. A black shadow started to appear, causing me to freeze up.
"Blue?" It disappeared as I relaxed, glad to have a distraction.
"Yeah, Jimin?" I looked at him as he watched me worriedly.
"Are you okay?"
"I-I'm fine..."
"No you're not..."
"I think it's a good time to go back now..."
"We just got here.."
"I'm going... Sorry..." I ran out of the cafe, running through the crowd. I heard footsteps behind me but I just kept running. My vision started to become blurry so I stopped and rested in an alleyway.

Touching my cheeks, I slowly sunk down to the floor trying my best to catch my breath. I heard someone call for me but I ignored it, sighing slightly.

I was finally out of their way so I could now sort myself out. Standing up, I tightened every limb in my body before relaxing. It felt a lot better to do so, and I could also now focus. Looking around, I smiled.

Being in Korea is fun... But why did BigHit choose me specifically? Our group isn't that big compared to Bangtan and we aren't even that good.. so why someone from my group? Why me of all the girls?

I shook my head, clearing those thoughts and walked out, seeing Jungkook and Namjoon run over to me.
"Blue, are you okay?" I nodded and smiled.
"I'm sorry about that.."
"It's fine... Just don't run off like that okay? Yoongi is still at the table waiting for us.." Namjoon got out his phone and called the others while we walked back to the café.

"What was that all about anyway?" Namjoon looked over at me, watching.
"Uh... nothing.."
"It was something..." Namjoon stopped and watched me.
"I can't tell you, I'm not allowed..."
"Contract?"
"Yup.."
"Right.." I heard Namjoon mumble something before continuing to walk. I sighed mentally, looking ahead of me as we walked. I really wanted to go home.

Now when I say "home", it is completely different to what you guys have in mind. It means not go home, as in the building you live in or the place or city. For me, it means after you die. When you have no physical form and you're just left there in some sort of form, like you're there but not physically. What I mean is that when you close your eyes, think of somewhere that has the most importance or somewhere you can relate to. That's where you'll be after you die.

For me, it's a beach, quiet but noisy, peaceful but busy. All of it is opposite of one another. And the main one: Empty, But Full.
What I mean by Empty, But Full is that the Sea may seem there is nothing in there, but there is an overwhelming space that is yet to be discovered.

How do I relate to it? I have no idea how my mind actually works, how I can come up with these frustrating things, how I am able to scare myself when not focusing on something. I have no idea what is truly going on. Is someone controlling my movements? Like a game? Or is it just a cruel story where everyone dies in the end? That's what I call home.

Namjoon snapped me back into reality with one simple question.
"Blue, are you okay?" He was watching me with worried eyes. Once I regained my senses, I realised that I had began to cry. I wiped my eyes before faking a smile.
"I'm fine.." Namjoon wasn't convinced.
"If you write it a certain way though... it spells save me... You are not fine Blue..." He wiped the rest of my tears before leading me inside the café.

The others saw me, Jimin running to the toilet to grab some tissues and Hoseok handing me a water bottle. I took them both, wiping my eyes and having a large gulp of water. They all sat close to me, watching as I fiddled with my fingers, not noticing all of them were watching me.

Yoongi was first to speak up.
"We should really head back, Manager is asking where we are.."
"Right.." Namjoon nodded, standing up. He held his hand out to me to help me up. He started to talk to me in English.
"If you do want to talk to me about anything, then go ahead.." I looked up at him and nodded. He helped me up, the boys following. Jungkook helped Taehyung up, Tae flailing dramatically into Jungkook's arm. All of us laughed at the two of them, smiling as we walked out of the café. I walked next to Jin, who was telling some dad jokes. Yoongi looked like he would explode out of annoyance but I noticed him relaxing when Jimin laughed.

Hoseok then started skipping along the pavement, dragging me with him. I laughed at his silliness before joining him, skipping down the pavement. I looked behind me, watching as Taehyung joined us, grabbing hold of my other hand. I smiled brightly, laughing with the two boys skipping like dorks down the pavement.

We soon got back to the building, looking up at it.
"We can hang out for a while if you want Blue.." Jimin smiled at me.
"I really should head back.."
"Oh, want me to go with you for company?" Jimin walked closer to me. I nodded.
"Thanks Jimin.." Jimin nodded.
"Come on, I'll stay round before asking one of the guys to come get me." I looked down at my arms, pulling down the sleeves. Jimin was staring at my arms.
"Blue, what was that?"
"Nothing. Don't worry." I started to walk off, Jimin following me. He ran a hand through his hair.
"You did that forty times in a concert once..." Jimin laughed at my statement.
"You remember that?!" I nodded, giggling. He smiled.
"Wow... I can't believe you know that.."
"I am an Army."
"Really?" He looked at me shocked, smiling more as I nodded.
"I have some friends that are also ARMYs, all of us in 5SG are."
"Woah.. that's so cool!" I smiled as Jimin chatted on to me about how overwhelming it was for him to know that BTS was popular worldwide.
"How is it with you girls? Us boys are huge fans.." I blushed brightly.
"W-wait... w-what?" I looked at him, shocked.
"Yeah. Jin and Namjoon always have a battle over their bias.."
"Who is..?"
"You, Blue.." I blushed even brighter.
MY BIAS IN BTS HAS ME AS THEIR BIAS IN MY GROUP?!
"Who's your bias Jimin?"
"SRJ. She's really pretty and amazing at rapping."
"Do you know about the others?"
"Jungkook's bias is Tia, Taehyung's is L, Yoongi-hyung's is between you and Kimmi, and Hoseok's is either you or SRJ.."
"Wow okay..." My cheeks were still bright pink. Jimin laughed a little.
"Someone's shocked."
"Yeah.. well... uh... we're here!" I sighed in relief mentally as we got to my place. I didn't realise how quick we walked. I opened the door, walking inside as Jimin closed the door behind me.
"Sp how long are you in Korea for?"
"Um... for two weeks..."
"You have to learn that choreography in two weeks?!" I nodded shyly.
"I am known for learning things quickly..." Jimin frowned.
"Well, if you can learn quickly then.. that's helpful. But still, two weeks isn't enough.."
"SiHyuk told me to focus mainly on helping you guys with dancing. Not specifically the routine." Jimin bit his lip, walking closer.
"But... you shouldn't be gone so soon..." I sighed.
"Well, we had to fit this in, but the main reason I'm here is because..."
"Well?"
"Please don't say anything... but I've been receiving many record deals from the big companies here in Korea, and back at home. Other places as well. So I have to go to those places as well.."
"But why are you working as a dance choreographer?"
"I don't know myself but they said they wanted to see how well I worked with other people."
"But you're already in a group."
"I know! And that's the whole reason I'm confused."
"If he tries splitting you guys up.. that won't be good.." I nodded, slumping on the couch. Jimin sighed.
"Well, if you want, I can show you the dance?"

I looked up at him and nodded, standing up. We spent the next hour learning the dance before I got it right, me showing it to Jimin and Jimin applauding at my skills. I mocked a curtsey and laughed. I also called up the girls, Jimin scaring them as SRJ nearly died from fangirling.
"Get up woman!"
"Omg omg omg!~ Jiminie~" Jimin smiled and waved shyly.
"Hi..." He did his best with speaking in English but he whispered in Korean to me.
"I wish Leader-hyung was here..."
"Ya! What about me?!" I pouted. He laughed and hid his face, the girls squealing at his cuteness.

Soon, Jimin was picked up and I was left alone in my apartment. I sighed, looking down at the floor. It was fun with Jimin, but why are they all being so nice? They don't have to.

What are you gonna tell them?
About what?
Going away in less than a week...
Wasn't it two?
Not anymore...

My eyes widened.
"That's right... my trip was shortened..." I unconsciously placed a hand on my chest, taking a deep breath.
Treatment starts soon...

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A/N
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So Blue is having to leave the boys, but how will they react?
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