I sat alone on another day.
The world was moving all around me,
But it seemed as if my life was in a standstill,
The doctors say its anxiety.
Everyone thinks anxiety means nervousness or fear,
But its deeper than that,
Anxiety hold you prisoner,
You cant leave your house.
Ding
Dong
Ding
Dong
The doorbell rings but i cant answer.
There is too much fear inside.
You cant answer the phone.
Ring
Ring
Ring
"Telephone for you!" my family yells,
I tell them to say I'll call back.
You cant eat.
Comp
Bite
Chew
No, not me.
The anxiety even controls that.
All the pain rushes back up
With every little thing i eat.
You cant go out.
Step
Step
Step
Everyone walking around me,
But i cant move,
The apprehension paralyses me.
Everyone says "Be brave. You can do it. You'll make it out of this."
But sometimes i wonder if i will.
I try to combat it all,
But if i attempt to do anything,
It starts over again.
Thump
Thump
Thump
My heart beats faster and faster.
I can feel it in my chest.
Beads of sweat,
Racing,
Falling,
Running down my forehead.
All the thoughts swarm in my brain.
The fear picks up.
It is unbearable.
I'm so frightened,
But i don't know what of.
The paranoia sweeps over my body,
Like a giant wave.
Everyday i have to fight,
What seems like a losing battle.
But then...... I look out side.
I see the colours.
I see the life.
I see spirit.
I know i can do this.
Hope,
Pray,
Win.
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30 days of bipolar
Short StoryThis is basically a book idea i came up with awhile back and basically every chapter is a different emotion/state (state being things like depression)
