Until The Very End || TomTord

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( A/N - hey I'm so sorry it's been awhile but I'm back now. I had state testing last week and some other stuff was going on in my life, but I'm back now. So, yeah let's get on with the chapter shall we. )

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When I woke up. There was a warm body sleeping next to me.
I look over to see Thomas sleeping next to me. My face then started to heat up fast. My mind then started to race on what happened last night for us to end up in this position. I then noticed that Thomas has woken up a bit. I was then realised from my thoughts to focus on the woken Thomas.

"Morning Babe~." He said to me. Which made me blush even more. "M-m-morning to you to sweetheart." I managed to spit out of my mouth. As my nervousness and anxiety was building up inside of me. "Did you like what happened last night~?" He ask me. I was a little confused on what he was talking about.

So, I just answered him even though I was a little unsure of the question. "Y-yeah?" I said. Even though it sounded more like a question much more than a response. "G-good~." He said. I blushed.

I want to ask him what happened last night, but I'm too scared... I just kept my mouth shut... He made me so happy. Even though I just don't know what happened last night...

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He seemed a bit confused on what I was taking about, but he was cute. He's so cute seeing him confused and flustered... So, I wanted to have a little bit of fun with his flustered and confusion... "Y-yeah. I-i think you blacked out during all the "fun" last night."  I told him. God I love him..

"Tordy~ What do you remember last?" I asked his curiously.. "i-i d-don't r-remember a-anything.." He started to cry and I felt like it was my fault. Even though it kinda was. "Shh~.. shh~.. it's okay I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you cry." I cooed in his ear.

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"Shh~.. shh~.. it's okay I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you cry." He cooed in my ear as I began to cry... I could feel warm tears wash down my face. As rain on a window plain. Tom then kissed my tears away from my face. It felt so nice. It made me feel so safe to know that I was in his arms.

I never knew I could feel this way with him. I never knew that I could feel so safe with someone, who thinks so low of himself. I wish he wouldn't do that. But he won't listen to me. Or will he?

"T-tom?" I asked. "Y-yeah." He said. "W-why do you feel so low of yourself?" I asked out of curiosity.

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"W-why do you feel so low of yourself?" He asked. That question I never knew the full answer to. The words shook violently inside my head. Like a ping pong game, bouncing back to back from each other. "I-i-i ..." Is all I could really say.

Until I got a bottle of Smirnoff from my side table. The alcohol burning my throat. Helping me get rid of those thoughts. I've always wanted gone.. I never wanted to real live those memories of him. But I guess I had to one more time.

I sighed a shackey breathe. "T-tord d-do y-you r-really want t-to k-know w-why I-i'm so l-low on m-myself all the t-time? I asked with heavy shacking tone in my voice. "Y-yeah." He said. I gulped down the lump in my throat. Not from the licker, but from all the pain and hurt. I've been through with that guy. 

  "W-well you see it h-happened a l-little bit a-after y-you destroyed our house. E-edd h-hooked me up on one of those d-dating websites. To try a-and get over y-you at the time." I took a breathe. Then another sip of my Smirnoff. I could tell was starting to cry again.

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I can't believe he liked liked me at the time when that was happening. I sighed. Tom then looked up at me to see if I was okay, but I had a few tears in my eyes. I was trying not to cry, but it was kinda hard not to. So, he pulled me into a hug. It was sweet to feel his touch.

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"A-and I hate to admit this, but i-it did w-work for only a little while. I mean I met this really, or so I thought, g-g-gu-u- oh WHO THE HELL AM I KIDDING HE WAS A FUCKING MONSTER on there..." I was trying so hard not to loose it. But little by little when I tell this story I brake away. This is the saddest part of my whole story.  "T-tom?" He asked me. "What!?" I said in a mean demonic voice. Which mad him move away from me. In a far corner at the end of the couch.

"I-im s-sorry." I said to him. Right before I started crying. Im a monster. Im a fucking monster. I don't belong here. Why the fuck am I here.

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( A/n ~ Omg!!! This is the longest chapter yet. I really do hope the wait was worth it for most of y'all. If not then I'm sorry. I'm so proud of this book and of y'all. I'm so proud of all the readers who made this all happened. I have at least 45 reads thx to all y'all. It really means a lot to me.)

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