some of you may have noticed or not, i honestly don't know, that lately i haven't posted any new imagines or if i do, they are basically just a repost in a manner of keeping this book alive one way or another. the reason standing behind this is not because i don't want to update anymore or have somehow given up on writing here.
it's just that in the past few months i've been going through something mentally and i don't feel myself at all. i've been stuck in a fvcked up place where my mind is trapped and i'm just doing the same things over and over again. i honestly don't know how to put it into words, it's one of the few things that i can't determine clear enough to my own self.
i've been feeling so irritated lately and basically every god damn thing makes me want to punch someone in the face. i argue quite a lot with my family which i regret as soon as i open my mouth and insult my parents.
i don't really have any more friends left since they all can't deal with my mood swings and are totally fed up with my anger issues lol.
i'm trying to focus all my energy, thoughts and dedication to studying and getting into my dream college that is not even located on that continent but never mind. i simply feel like all the people around me are so used to living like animals that just strive to survive for the exact same day without thinking in perspective and without actually having any dreams and goals to pursue.
also, i've been experiencing some health problems with my weight which express in weight loss that i can't control but that's another topic that i don't really feel like discussing right now.
anyway, thank you all for understanding. i'm endlessly thankful for all of you who keep paying any significant attention to that book and my drama, life problems and such.
i love you all so much.
-maggie
