So this is telling some really deep shit that has happened to me so if you want to know more about me and why I don't really open up to people this is why.
Ok so it started when I was 6 I was in Kindergarten bc I got held back yeah ik how tf do u get held back in Kindergarten well idfk but I'm now 13 about to be 14 and CPS has been in my house 17 times bc my mom's family is nothing but pieces of shit and only want me for money. Well when I was little like 6 one day I was in school and I got called down the the office which wasn't anything big until I got down to the office and seen the guys stading by the conference room. I had seen them before so I knew that they were with CPS but I asked what I got called up for and they told me that the "nice men" wanted to talk to me so I agreed and went into the conference room with them bc I couldn't say no I was 6 I did t know what was happening. Well once we got in there they closed and locked the door then had another man stand in front of the glass to the room so no one could see in there then they said.....they said I had to strip my clothes I asked for a girl and they told me no so I here I am 6 years old having to strip down in front of men that were at the time like 30 something and that fucking scard me for life. All bc my mom's mom told CPS that my parents beat me and that why I always wore long sleeves and pants. If I get a man teacher I will tell the principal that I need transfered to a different class bc that experience really scard me. Then I was in the same grade and I was molested by a kid a year older than me but in the same grade we had music that day and my shoe came untied and he was behind me well I bent down the tie my shoe and he said he was pushed but his hand ended up I between my legs and cuping my shit. Then I was molested by my dad's friends 15 year old son at the time he was staying at my Aunt and Uncles for the night well i lived there and he ended up touching me twice actually he touched me while I was asleep and then I was going to get in the shower and he grabbed my ass I think I was like 10 at the time. I was also almost kidnapped in Missouri by some old guy that took by bags that I had bc me and my mom were leaving from Indiana and going to California bc me and my mom left my dad well he took my bags and then started wispering stuff in my ear like
"Your really pretty"
"Your perfect"
"Your amazing"
And this guy was like 60 and he was trying to kidnap me and get me away from my mom and then I took my bags from him and my mom left me with her friend that we had been riding the same bus with sense Indiana and she went and told him off .
I guess the point of this is kinda to tell you guys why I am Bisexual and leaning more towards Lesbian but like I've never had good experiences with a guy and it just scares the shit outta me tbh well that and I'm just attracted to boobs but like my life has been really fucked up and I still get made fun of I would love to tell the people younger than me that are getting bullied that it gets better but it really don't bc sometimes you don't have anyone and all you can do is turn to your music and your blade and it fucking sucks thinking that your not good enough. All bc if the way we get treated.
If you guys would like to know more about my whole life story comment cuz I can add a chapter about it
