ONESHOTS. 🌸 GAWSTEN

loving someone.

This is very, very angsty, I'd say. There's lots of crying in this from multiply people. Also character throw ups, talks about being yelled at as a kid, kind of selfharm, suicide attempts, and mild anxiety/panic attacks mentioned.
Please stay safe and don't read if this could cause you any trouble with your mental health. I love you.
[Also, there are exes involved in this. I have my own opinion on them and I'm sure you do, too. I know what they did and I don't have any positive views on the whole situation. Just keep it to yourself, though, I don't want my comments to only be about them. Thank you.]

Also, it is long as hell. I worked on it a little longer. Be prepared.

1 new message from babe💘!

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babe💘
awsten we should break up.

"What?" The purple haired boy asked out loud, earning confused looks by his bandmates on the couch next to him.

"What's up, man?" Geoff asked as he focused on the TV again, remaining playing Mario Kart. Awsten ignored him and just stared at his phone. "Awsten?"

what, why?!

babe💘
i cheated on you

Awsten's mouth hung open as he stared at the text he just received. This had to be a bad joke. It was not april fools day, was it? Not believing it, he checked his calender. Nope, it wasn't.

are you kidding me?

babe💘
i'm not. and i'm happier off now anyway. bye.

ciara wait

ciara!

you can't be serious

babe come on please

babe?

Message not sent!

are you serious

Message not sent!

Fuck you.

Message not sent!

Awsten locked his phone before he stuffed it into his pocket and jumping up. Geoff and Otto watching him confused. Jawn gave Geoff a look as Awsten stormed off to his bunk which was rather in the back.

The purple haired boy closed the curtain quickly as soon as he laid in his bunk. He just stared at the wall in disbelief. She couldn't be serious. She couldn't be. This had to be a joke. She could not break up with him. She could not have cheated on him. She just recently visited him on tour, how could she? How could he be stupid enough to stay with her since she cheated on her last boyfriend with him? He was so stupid. So unbelievable stupid.

Awsten clenched his jaw and fists as tears began to pool in his heterochromic eyes. They were tears of sadness as they pooled up there, but came out as tears of full anger, dripping down his face with nothing but hate. He pulled his phone out of his pocket, holding it tightly in his hand before he smacked it against the bunk wall. He could hear the screen crack and looked at it as it lit up, showing him and Ciara on his background.