ONESHOTS. 🌸 GAWSTEN

it was only a kiss, my ass.

Awsten sulked down onto the couch, a blanket pulled up to his neck with a pack of blueberries and a bottle of orange juice next to him. He was supposed to be on a date then, but turns out to the girl it was a normal meet up, as friends. To her, Awsten was her 'buddy' and 'pal'. Awsten thought that he'd have a chance after his last relationship, but turns out he did not.

Looking up when the door was opened, his eyes locked on Geoff, who raised an eyebrow at the boy on the couch. "Weren't you supposed to be on a date right now?" He asked, curiously.

The purple haired boy shrugged, taking a big gulp of orange juice before he answered. "She doesn't like me like that," he muttered. "I'm just her 'buddy'." Air-quoting the last word, he sighed afterwards. "Whatever, I'm hopeless."

Geoff sat down next to him with a sigh. "You'll find someone. Someday." He smiled at him. "I'm sure of it."

"I mean, I guess." Awsten shrugged again. "It's just that- I didn't have like, physical contact with someone for many months now and I just, miss it, I guess." He chewed on the inside of his cheek. "I miss being kissed and stuff. It's stupid."

Geoff chuckled, making the younger boy look at him. "It's just a kiss, Awsten. It's not that special."

The boy rolled his eyes, looking down at this lap. "Well, you say that 'cause you get to kiss someone everyday. I don't get to have that and, I don't know.." He sighed.

He heard Geoff sigh again and was ready to look at him again, before Geoff's hand cupped his cheek and turned him to face him. The younger was shocked when Geoff leaned in and pressed his lips against the boy's. Awsten's eyes were blown widely while Geoff's were lightly shut close. After a few seconds, the smaller one's eyes also closed, his lips working against Geoff's lightly, his heart racing. A whine almost left his lips when Geoff pulled away, his eyes opened again.

Geoff was smiling at him. "See?" He asked. "It's only a kiss."

Awsten, on the other hand, was in awe. His lips were tingling, his heart racing. He looked down to Geoff's lips, which were a bit more red than before, making him guess that his would look the same. He gulped. "Um, y-yeah. Only a kiss." He nodded, and Geoff smiled at him again.

"I'll get going. Chloe asked me to meet her at the gate." The older one stood up and made his way to the door. "You should go out, too, bud. You look way too depressed." He chuckled again, before leaving the bus, leaving Awsten with tingling lips and his heart nearly beating out of his chest.

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After the show, the band and crew made their way back to the bus. With them were both, Chloe and Grace, walking next to their boyfriends. Jawn also brought his girlfriend, making Awsten walk next to Lucas with his hands stuffed into his pockets, staring daggers into Geoff's back, who was holding his girlfriend's hand. They were all holding hands with each other and fuck, did Awsten feel awkward and lonely walking next to Lucas in the very back.

The feeling in his chest was weird every time he glanced down at Geoff's hand interlocked with his girlfriend's. Awsten's lips still felt tingling; if it was from the kiss earlier, or the performance on stage, choose yourself. He felt like he was going to be sick when the couple kissed because– Geoff's lips touched his own only about an hour ago and now the older boy doesn't have the sensation of Awsten's lips on his own anymore, but the one of his girlfriend's lips against his own. Yet, Awsten was still stuck with the feeling of Geoff's lips against his own. He was left with his heart still beating too hard in his chest for it to be normal, and he was left with the same sickening feeling in his stomach when he saw the couple laugh with each other.