PANI SS: It's Divine

Staying away....

Niti was sitting alone in the dark corner of her room after Parth left her all shattered and broken. She was crying remembering what just happened. She never thought that things would turn so complicated. She kept thinking and questioning herself what went wrong.

" yeh kya ho gaya? What just happened? Did I over react? Should I have given him sometime to react to the sudden confession that I made? What was between us? What are we? Should I talk to him? No ....no...no I should not , did he not just walked away. Woh bhi toh keh sakta tha ki mujhe time chahiye. Is it over? Be strong Niti uske bina itne saal jiya tha na tumne."

Niti was twisting and turning in that dark corner. Her heart ached on the thought of he being away from him..

" yeh kab hua mere saath. Kab mein use Itna pyaar karne lagi patha hi nahi chale."

She fisted hair in her fist and pulled them wincing in pain..

"Ahhh..it's hurting , please take me out of this. Please take this pain away" she banged her hands on the wall to let out her anger and pain. She was getting restless. She took her phone in her hand opened the contacts and selected Parth's number. She was tapping her foot restlessly and her finger ready to press the call button but her heart and mind battled. Her self respect, her ego , her anger everything got mixed she rehearsed in her mind that she would scold him to just walk away. With shivering hands she dialled his number, his phone rang but he did not pick up. Niti again dialled his number but he again did not pick up. She tried two more times she was getting mad now...she threw her phone in anger. She was tired after so much crying she slumped on the bed and slept..

Parth's Apartment

After having the emotional encounter with Niti he returned to his house. He was roaming in his room restlessly..

" yeh kya ho gaya? I never wanted this. Did I over react? Kya mujhe us ke paas ruck kar samjhana chahiye tha? God....why is this so difficult? Why is she not understanding that it's too fast to decide whether is it love. She just blamed me for lusting her.  It felt as if she was disgusted by my touch. Can't she see what I feel for her? But exactly even I do not know what I feel for her. Am I also falling in lo.... no, not at all no chance. Yes, I should stay away from her. These feelings will fade away soon. Pehli bi toh Raha tha uske Bina."

When Parth was busy in his thoughts his phone started ringing...he looked at caller I'd and was happy to see Niti calling but his ego, his anger and his confusion stopped him. He did Not pick the phone he wanted to show her that he is not desperate to be with her. He kept his phone on silent and threw it on bed ....it rang 3 times and fourth time he could not resist to take her call but before he could swipe the green button the call went dead. He was disappointed with himself " ek baar baat toh karni chahiye thi. But ab kya? I am not going to call her"

Parth decided against calling her back again and here Niti was contemplating on how to get back to her useful self  "Pehli bhi toh rahi hoo na uske bina ab bhi reh loongi. This closure was needed. For years together I was wanting for it. This time I am going to emerge out stronger. He just blamed me for having a physical attraction towards him couldn't he see what I felt for him ? was it that superficial? I will have to just get out of this or I will get mad. I should call my friends".

Here Parth's condition was similar he was roaming in his balcony thinking " this feeling is suffocating me. I have to get rid of this. I have to take her out of my mind."

Niti called up her friends and stepped out of her house to have her time with her friends and Parth packed up and went to Pune his home where he could find some solace. They had been busy all day to keep away from each other's thoughts. Niti partied with friends late night and Parth too went out with his old friends in Pune.

Niti's friends dropped her to house. She with heavy steps reached her house and when she opened the door of her flat memories came haunting her again. She could feel his scent still in her house. She remembered how a messy ,crying Parth had come to her place after his fight with Charlie. She came in the living room and remembered the stubborn kid who would trouble her for dinner and the birthday celebration brought smile on her face but it vanished when she reached her room which was turning in to their room slowly but he left her alone with his beautiful memories. She sat on her bed and touched the pillows. she picked one of them that had his scent still lingering and hugged it tightly and cried her heart out " kyu chale gaye? It hurts it really hurts . Ek baar bhi nahi socha mere baare mein. Do I deserve this?does my love deserve this? Yes, I don't need him no not any more he does not deserve me". she slept hugging the pillow.

Here Parth too returned from his late night party. He danced, he enjoyed he just wanted to forget everything. He needed an escape and he got it. He was sitting on a swing in the balcony and staring at the sky that's when a hand touched his shoulder. He turned to see and it was his mother. He smiled at her and laid his head in her lap she knew something was bothering her son " Parth..." parth looked at her " hmmm...." she continued  "kuch hua hai kya? " he nodded negatively she understood his gesture and said " jab mann Kare to jaroor Bataan..haa I will be waiting" she ruffled his hair and after sometime he moved towards his room.

As soon as Parth entered his room the thought of sleeping alone scared him....he was now habituated of sleeping with her. He just wanted to hug her and sleep. He was restless " yeh Maine khud ko kya kar liya. I don't need her anymore. I have to take her out of my mind" determined he slept after a lot of twisting and turning...

Writers POV

How could this happen? Should it not be like a cliche love story and They should talk it out and sort it out. But in the real world , hurt souls loose the essence of relationships. People instead of talking they assume, create differences and drift from each other. What will happen with Parth and Niti will their short lived relationship live it's life and struggle to be a Hamesha...kinda story or this relationship will succumb to their egos and differences. Parth and Niti were at differences in the past too. But what will be their future now. Can anybody guess? What will happen? Should Niti try to amend their relation or she should wait him to return to her....