KABANATA XIX

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"February 16, 1865. Hello! My name is Jaden Zamora, today is making and my sister's fifth birthday! Mother gave me this notebook and told me I could write my thoughts in it because I can't talk to anybody else except my twin sister Janice! I love my sister, she always plays with me and she never hurts me like my mother does. She told me that she hated me because I look like my father but even so I love her and my twin sister! -Jaden Zamora."

"March 13, 1865. Janice always tells stories about what it looks like outside the house. I really want to see it for myself but mother told me that I can't go out in my room. I have to stay here but it's fine, I have my wonderful twin who I always need. -Jaden Zamora."

"November 27, 1865. I snuck out of my room today and I saw my sister and my mother playing on the playground. My mother looked so happy, she never smiles to me but I still love her. I also got scolded by uncle Sewon because he found out I left my room. But after that, he played with me inside and it was so much fun! -Jaden Zamora."

"January 11, 1866. I asked uncle Sewon what happened to my father, he told me he was killed by scary people from outside and was never seen again. After hearing that, I never wanted to get out ever again. People were crazy and they had to kill my father, I can never forgive them for that. -Jaden Zamora."

"April 24, 1866. Janice told me that what uncle Sewon told me was wrong. Everyone she knew was nice to her and they loved playing with her and giving her lots of toys. I didn't believe her and told her she was lying! Until she told me to pretend to be her and see for myself. She got me this thing you put into your head that makes it look like your real hair that she called a wig. Our Aunt gave it to her as a present to make her look beautiful like a doll. She let me burrow her dresses and cute shoes and then it began, the day we decided to switch personas. -Jaden Zamora."

"October 28, 1866. Switching places with Janice was fun! Mother was so nice to me! She fed me food, played with me, slept with me, I really loved being Janice. Janice was too kind to let me pretend to be her once a week, it became our little secret. No one suspects a thing! -Jaden Zamora."

"March 22, 1867. I found out I easily get mad when people starts to annoy me. I would yell at them for spilling on my dress, I would kick on them if they pulled my hair and I would even bite them if they insulted me. But I never regretted go any of what I did, they deserved it. They were annoying me. -Jaden Zamora."

"May 16, 1867. Janice wanted our switching to stop but I didn't want to. I loved being her! For the first time, we fought and had no choice but to lock her up in the room so she wouldn't get away. I told her she was being selfish on not giving me my happiness which she was. I was so happy that I got the chance to be with mother for more than one day unlike our usual switching. I regret nothing. -Jaden Zamora."

"June 17, 1867. It's been a month since me and Janice switched places. She has been in the room, doing nothing like what I did before. She pleaded to get her life but I refused. I didn't want to go back inside that stupid room again. I realized I wanted to be Janice forever. -Jaden Zamora."

"July 10, 1867. I did what it had to be done. I knocked her out with the vase Sewon gave me and brought her outside without anyone seeing. If I wanted to be Janice forever, then Janice must be gone forever. I pushed her unconscious body to the well and covered it with the lid, now she really was gone. I regret nothing. -Jaden Zamora."

"August 03, 1867. Now that Janice was gone, I could be her forever. Of course, my mother found out that Jaden was missing but she never cared. She didn't care if he was gone or if he was dead, all she cared was me, Janice. My twin sister was already out of the picture and mother loved me and only me. -Jaden Zamora."

"September 21, 1867. I hate all of them! I hate those people! I just wanted them to shut up and leave me and my mother alone! All these people kept saying how Janice became different and she wasn't the girl she used to. They keep on telling me how I have changed but I don't care what they say. They're worthless. -Jaden Zamora."

"October 09, 1867. I hate it! I hate Janice! Even if she's dead, she's all what people kept on talking about! They say like, Janice, you've grown so much different! You're so nice before and such a sweet girl but now, you're not. It makes me want to kill Janice again! I hate why they always loved Janice so much but why is it so hard to love me? I hate that name! I hate Janice! I don't want her in my life! -Jaden Zamora."

"November 25, 1867. Janice Zamora, you don't know how much I hate you. I don't want to hear your name ever again, I don't want anyone to say your name, I don't want anyone to ever remember who you were. If someone ever knows you exist, I will haunt them and kill them. I swear," Droplets of blood stains were in the paper.

Namjoon looked at his friends filled with horror. He didn't knew how deep the story was until now, the person who was haunting wasn't Janice, it was Jaden Zamora. "That's the last page... It was the day Jaden committed suicide. And the start of the curse."

"Hyung, there's something written at the back of the last page." Jungkook pointed his finger at the notebook, catching a glimpse of a handwriting.

Namjoon checked at the back and there he saw another part of the diary, completely different from the others. It was a fine handwriting of none other than, Janice Zamora.

"April 25, 1866. Hello! I saw this notebook on Jaden's desk! I always see him writing here but he never let's me see it or tells me what he writes here. I guess this is where he writes what he feels. But I can't read it, I respect his privacy. Today, I decided that me and Jaden should switch places. I pity my twin brother, I don't know why my mother despise him but I really love my brother, he's my other half. I want him to be happy! -Janice Zamora."

"May 09, 1866. We switched again! I'm really happy that I get to make him happy for once. I really love my twin brother. -Janice Zamora."

"June 17, 1866. Jaden really loves mother! The way his eyes sparkle when he tells me how his day with our mother was. When they played, when they cuddled and even when they ate! He looks genuinely happy when he tells them all to me. I pity him cause mother doesn't feel the same for him, not as Jaden Zamora that is. -Janice Zamora."

"August 18, 1866. Even if mother loves him, I do. I really love my twin brother, I'd do anything to make him happy. -Janice Zamora."

"February 16, 1867. Happy seventh birthday to us Jaden! I love you, even if you're slowly changing. I will always love you twin brother. -Janice Zamora."

"April 04, 1867. I want the switching to end! Ever since we started switching, he became different. I feel like it's my fault, but what could I do? I want my brother to be happy but I also want my twin brother back. I want the old Jaden back. -Janice Zamora."

"May 15, 1867. Jaden and I fought today... I don't want us to fight. But this has gone way too far. He locked me up in his room, I don't know how long does he plan to keep this act. But I believe my brother will go back to the way he is, he's my twin. -Janice Zamora."

"June 18, 1867. I don't know why but I feel like I have no longer yet to live. He's a different person from before, I don't know who he is anymore. I don't know what he can do to me... But I still believe in my brother to go back the way he is, I'll always love him. I love you Jaden Zamora. -Janice Zamora."

"July 09, 1867. I'll always love you Jaden Zamora, my twin brother. -Janice Zamor-"

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