Leftover Vapor

Trace

(Hospital Corridor)

We staying in the hospital right now, but my parent and Riku's parent back and forth from this hospital to the beach home to check the house if it's still okay. Me, Ryumi, Kozumi, Takumi, Riku, and Izumi staying and sleep at the hospital right now, taking care of Chiko and accompany her in the hospital.

It's night time now, almost 10 PM, but I can't sleep through this night. I'm just thinking all about that in the corridor right now. I'm just sit down and thinking, why I didn't tell this sooner. Why I'm just being ignorant about the feeling I always feel since yesterday. And how to fix all this problem

When I'm just sitting there, Takumi walk to me and sit near me, to ask about my condition

Takumi:"Miharu...are you okay?"

Miharu:"..."

I'm in between if I want to say I'm okay but I'm not used to lying about my feeling or should I talk to him about my feeling but I'm scared if I'm just making Takumi more worried about the situation

Takumi:"..."

Miharu:"..."

It's just a quiet section there, no one speaks even uttered a single word. But, I think Takumi know what I'm feeling just from the quiet and my response right now

Takumi:"..."

Miharu:"..."

Takumi:"I think...I know what you feel right now...don't worry if you didn't answer it"

Miharu:"So that's my feeling telling me...just...why?"

Takumi:"Miharu...? What are you saying right now?"

Miharu:"...It just...my feeling...I'm feeling something isn't right since you telling me Chiko isn't feeling well..."

Takumi:"Oh...I see..."

Miharu:"Sorry...if I didn't tell you about this...this is my mistake...I didn't brave enough to tell-"

Takumi:"Don't be so guilty about that...It's also my fault...I know grandma isn't feeling right, but I didn't take care enough to her..."

Miharu:"So...we all have a different mistake but same conclusion..."

Takumi:"Yeah...If I didn't be so selfish and more caring of my grandma..."

It's my first time to see Takumi cry and thinking it's his mistake that leads his grandma to this problem

Miharu:"Takumi..."

Takumi:"I'm sorry!"

Miharu:"STOP THAT! WE'RE NOT REACH THE END YET! WHY YOU JUST BLAME YOURSELF FOR ALL OF THIS?!"

Takumi:"..."

My voice echoed in the empty quiet corridor. I felt really angry but, I'm also in tears because I'm still didn't know how to fix all of this, and now, I must face Takumi problem about this is because of him. I actually didn't want to add more problem and more thing that I can't let go so easily, but Takumi just add it, but, I also didn't want Takumi to feel so guilty of himself and be sad about it

Miharu:"..."

Takumi:"..."

And, it's just another silent moment again. Angry or sad atmosphere actually not the best one to keep talking, so Takumi left the corridor and into ICU room to sleep. Meanwhile, I'm still sitting in the corridor, thinking really hard what I should do. 

My holiday here it just 9 days left to return to the city. And I know, this type of illness takes a long time to recover, unless someone is donor their kidney or the doctors figured out the best way to cure Chiko. But until now, no kidney donor or the doctor that has the best way to cure her.