Unlikely Love

Skipping

I was trying hard to stay strong but it was very hard. Specially for me, even having so many "friends" who actually suported me in this situation but i am still feeling lonely and powerless. I decided to at least protect me and my mental health.

I decided to take a time for me. I started to skiping classes and try to find the answers to my questions , alone, in my own world, in my room and listening to my music. Trying to figure out why that human being behavior was affecting me so much, and why she was acting like that. I am just a student. I actually didn't care anymore. I bet that my "friends" wouldn't about me as well.

The first day i skept school i switched off my phone, i didn't want to talk to anyone. I just wanted to be in my own world, with my thoughts and just me.

In my head some confusing thoughts were flying by just like:

"hum it's normal get mad when you are offedend by someone but she didn't need to get mad FOREVER... and why she was giving me so much attention?...i mean she's a grown woman, with family and probably a good life, and i?  I am just a teenager who has nothing in her mind but  a heart full of feelings... What does she see's in me? ...Why does she is treating me like this?... I could be her daughter... I wish someone do the same to her just to see if she likes to feel this way too... Why does she is enjoying doing this to me?... That's sick!... I wish i could beat her!... Oh wait she deserves more than this... She is so mean to everyone... One day i will do to her exacly what she is been doing to me... Is this some kind of hobby she have?... Bullying people?... She is the worst person i ever meet... If she died no one would care... I HATE HER!... But when i look into her eyes... I get lost... I guess she wasn't the person she was preteding to be"

Hours passed by it was 10 pm when decided to switch on my phone. Not hoping for any message or missed call. I mean why someone would care? it's just one day. Maybe they think i am sick. Anyway i just wanted to check my social media. When i looked at my phone i had 3 missed calls from my classmate and also friend Ashley. Of course i wouldn't call her back. After some minutes she called me again but i didn't answer. After some minutes she sent me a message saying:

- Hello Jessie, i hope u re fine, just wanted you to know that me and the girls missed you. Your lovely friend "cruella" asked us about you, i told her you were sick. That woman can't really forget you, not even for a day! Haha. Hope you will come back tomorrow. XOXO.

I was so mad right now. Why that bitch just don't forget me? I am one in a million. I didn't want to come back but i also didn't want my classmates to think i was skiping school because of this situation.

I grabbed my phone and i decided to Text Ashley back:

-hey Ash don't worry I'm just having a headache but i'll be back tomorrow.

I went to sleep knowing that tomorrow i would be in a battlefield.

I closed my eyes. Crying.

You don't know how bad i am feeling right now. I just want to fade away. I won't be strong enough to hold this shit no more... I won't. I am just HUMAN.