( Chapter told in Haze's Point Of View )
"Promise me you will call when you get home?" She asked me with such emoition hidden behind her hopeful voice.
"I promise." I huffed. Within seconds of puting my bag down I ran over to her. I grabbed her in my arms as I pushed her up against the wall of our newly made home.
"I will always love you." I breathed into her ear for one last time as I soon placed a few kisses on her neck.
I slam my fists against the desk as all these memories of our last night come together.
I felt her legs wrap around my waists as she held onto me for support. My hands moved down towards her backside as a form of protection.
My hand moves up to my lips as I touch the spot where she last kissed me. I could still feel her lips upon mine as the memory gets more intense.
With the need to breath we both unwillingly pull apart from each other. I rubbed her nose with mine as I knew she loved that gesture.
"Please promise me you will get better so we could be together again?" She begged.
Without saying a word I lifed up her shirt just a little to where the bruise showed. Tears had fallen as I had given the bruise a soft kiss.
The haunting memories of the night when I abused her still linger upon me. The two of us have tried everything to just forget that horrable night only I couldn't. I abused the one thing that mattered to me the most. I abused the one girl that could make me smile when no one else could. There's no going back now. It was all my fault. As much as I wanted to stay I knew that if I didn't leave my newly intake of alcohol would cause me to still abuse her.
"I can't promise that I will get better but I could try." I lied. I knew that I could never go through with this. Especially after what I did to her. The guilt will never go away. It will just keep dragging me down into the depths of my despair.
"That's all I need." She replied.
"I love you." I told her for one last time.
"I love you too." She replied without knowing that would be the last I love you from me.
I bang my fist onto the desk. I let out an angry tear. I watch it fall as it hits the corner of my goodbye letter. I quickly fold it and place it into an envlope. I write her name on it as I add a heart to it. I grab my keys as I quietly head to Camila's room. The door quietly opens. I find her purse as I know she will find my letter inside it. She never leaves without her purse. I gently walk over to her as I gently place a small kiss on her lips. She doesn't awake as she's overtaken by sleep. She's probabbly dreaming about the future that we have planned together. With one last walk I manage to walk out of her room without a single sound.
Camila think's that I have left. She thinks that I am on my way to get help. Only I am not. I am on my way to do something that wouldn't even cros her mind. I jump into my pick up truck as I pulled down the road of our neighborhood without looking back for even just a second.
I look at the clock to notice it's 4:00 am. I should have been there by now. Soon people will worry.
I slow down a bit as I reach my destintaion. A small bridge remains down as some workers are coming home from their nightshift.
"I love you Camila." I silently cry into the night's air as I suddenly slam my foot onto the gas pedal. Before I could even stop myself with second thoughts my truck spins out of control as the wheel is now out of my hands. Fear takes over as I just realized what I have done. Even though this is what I wanted a part of me now wishes that I could turn back. Only now I can't. I start to cry as salt water starts to over close my throat. How could i have been so stupid? Was the last thing that I could think about before my world has gone black.
