Unforgotten Love

Never Your Fault

Ryan's POV:

When Jacky and I got dressed again, we ended up taking a walk. Nowhere in particular, just down the road a little ways. It was nice. Walking with my crush. We didn't hold hands, though, he doesn't want the world to know about us. More specifically, about him. I was the first one Jacky ever came out to as being gay. He trusted me with his secret, which I had kept, even from my girlfriend. When he came out to Ronnie, though, that's when things got difficult for him. Hell, I wouldn't be surprised if Ronnie pressured Jacky into having sex that time. I mean, Jacky did come out of Ronnie's room on the bus puffy eyed, like he'd been crying. I don't think Ronnie would've done that, but I still wouldn't be surprised. When we got back to Jacky's house, I confronted him about the incident.

"What happened between you and Ronnie? That night on the bus." I asked. Jacky looked confused. "When you and Ronnie had sex that time, you came out of there puffy eyed. He didn't hurt you, did he?" At this point, Jacky began to cry.

"Ryan." he started, his voice shaking a little. "He didn't hurt me. I-I just felt-awful. For what I'd done. I-" I pulled him into a hug. I can't take it when he cries. "I always loved you. I'm sorry." he squealed a bit as he said 'I'm sorry.' The only thing I could do was gently stroke his hair, in an effort to calm him. He had felt this way from the start. I never realized it, but looking back upon our friendship, I fell for him a long time ago, too. I guess I didn't want to admit to myself that I was in love with my band's guitarist. Well, ex band's guitarist. I didn't want to bring myself to realize that I, his 'mama bear,' fell in love with the one person in this world I swore to protect the moment I saw him.

"It's okay, baby." I said after a few minutes. "It's never been your fault."