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c. 1; Vans Gogh

November 25th - 7:09pm

There I stood in her dorm, holding her as we both cried. Crying over love. Crying over heartbreak. Crying because it was over, and love was being torn apart, and we knew it. That her schoolwork increased, fatigue became to consume her and being caught up in her big break in fashion, she lost track of everything

While I loved my girl more than words ever described, we knew her suffering was to be put to an end. Her health, physically, emotionally and mentally would be put above love, no matter how strong. Love is putting the ones you care about above you, and seeing what's right for them, even if it hurts you. Whether I liked it or not, I had to say goodbye to my love, and give her strength. My possible future wife. My best friend. My first love

"Corbyn, this is hard, but we have to do this. I'm so sorry" Christina spoke between sniffs as I hugged her tightly one last time before letting go of her. Her short hair stuck to her face, lips quivering and eyes swollen. Every single feature I loved about her, was now broken

"It'll be ok. Just know when everything is figured out, I'll be somewhere, looking at the sky, thinking about you. I will love you forever Christina Marie Harris" I smiled weakly, cupping her face and whipping the tears from her beautiful brown eyes. She tried to smile before bursting out in tears again, falling into my arms as we sank to the floor of her room

~ 2 weeks ~

Leaving my room wasn't an option unless I needed food, water, or to use the bathroom - showering included. Coffee cups covered my floor, walls bare from where pictures used to be, my computer collecting dust, and clothes stacked in the corners

Wreck was an understatement. I couldn't function, and everything seemed to crumble a little more each day

"Corbs, you need anything. Jordan and I are going to Walgreens" Ashley spoke up as I looked at her, shaking my head before she rolled her eyes and kept walking past my room. She hated seeing me like this, and even if it was for a good cause, she wanted Christina and I to stay together

Hours tick by before I shower and go immediately to bed afterwards. Not wanting to do anything, even though I needed to. I was holding onto something that was gone. She's probably doing better with her friends, whereas I shut out my band mates and locked myself in my room. Going on a hiatus that would last who knows how long

My eye lids got heavier and heavier until I was out, going to sleep with no dreams or nightmares, just the dark. I couldn't see or think of what I needed to, leaving me to be cold under two blankets. It still hurt, and it shouldn't. I should be healing with the important people, but I left them aside and can't seem to cover the cuts

Half asleep me in the middle of the night heard whispering before I was picked up by two sets of arms. Arms that cradled me and almost hit me off multiple door ways. I rubbed my eyes to see Jordan and Jack. Why in the name is Jack here

"We picked him up today and the others are coming in tomorrow. Now stay quiet and let us fix you blue boy" Jordan whispered to me before placing my feet on the ground. I went to run but Jack tripped me, standing me up and walking me to Jordan's car. He tipped his imaginary hat before Jack pushed me into the back, causing me to fall over and get back up when he gets in the front seat, locking the car

"I'm taking you to a store and you will do whatever you can to be fucking happy Corbs, because you like this hurts everyone more than you can believe" he turns around as I look at him. Scoffing it off and rolling my eyes, I scoot over and look outside at the night sky. No moon was visible, limiting my view of the stars

Pulling up to a grocery store, Jack turns around to look at me once more. "See that girl that just walked in, talk to her, buy her something, and get yourself some tasty cakes too. You're a little too thin and you need comforting" He spoke up as we got out of the car. I kept to myself as we walked in. He went off in some direction as I tried to found the girl we saw walk in

Wandering aimlessly, avoiding his request, I dropped more K-cups and doughnuts in my basket. He would look out from his perch, pointing to the aisle she would walk into. I would give him a face before going to the aisle away from him. He would groan before disappearing back into his area he watched me from

Rounding the corner to get the yogurt Ashley probably wanted, I saw her. The girl Jack wanted me to talk to. I stared at her, her blonde up in a bun as she stood in leggings and a white sweater wearing... painted Vans

"Yes they're Vans I painted" she spoke up, her eyes not leaving the milk and yogurts in front of her. I stood, my jaw hanging as I didn't know what to say. "Now don't be so shy. I know when guys stare, it tends to happen a lot, especially when you're new to a town like this one" She kept the smile as she turned to look at me

"Yeah, about that. I'm sorry, it's just, I kinda need to talk to you, but not like a dare or anything. I wasn't dared to talk to you. I just need someone to talk to" I rambled on as she stood there, one eyebrow raised before she began to laugh at me

"You know how to make yourself look like a fool don't ya" she laughed at me as I rubbed the back of my neck, clearly embarrassed by myself

"Yeah, kinda what I'm know for" I said, looking to the yogurt, avoiding her eyes, "Being a goof, so to say"

She nodded, not exactly knowing what to add on to my sentence. We stood there in a silence before she put her hand out to shake mine. "I'm new to the area and need a friend, and this awkward silence is killing me so I needed to break it" I nodded, proceeding to shake her hand. "I'm Jocelyn"

"Well, I'm Corbyn with a 'y'" I responded as she shook my hand, then releasing it and standing there awkwardly again. "I'm usually social but it's late and my brain can't work"

"Then we can try another day" she then walked off with the same smile

"Way to go. It only took you two weeks to find someone"

"No, no, no. I was forced into this, and I found no one. She's just another girl who lives here in Fairfax for god knows what reasons. Nothing will happen, and I might not even talk to her again. She's just another person I talked to once" I spoke to Jack, emphasizing the word 'once'. He rolled his eyes before walking off saying 'you're gonna talk to her'