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I Have To Go

Yoongi's P.O.V.

As we lay next to each other, holding on to one another not wanting to let go. I caress your face. Holding in my tears as the feeling of me needing to leave gets stronger. It's pulling me, reminding me that our night is coming to an end.

My love, I say to you.  I feel you press yourself onto me. Without looking up you humm your response.

Mmmmm.

You know that I love you, right? That I will always watch over you?  I feel you tense up.  I love you for all iternity.  I also know that you love me and will always love me.  Now I feel your body shake.

You turn yourself from me, your back now facing me. You hide your face with your hands and I hear you sob quietly. I kiss the back of your shoulder, then I pull you up close to me. I keep kissing your shoulder and I embrace you tighter. You seem know what's going on because of what you ask me.

Must you leave?

You know I have to.

Can't you stay?

You know I can't.

Then we are silent again. I'm not going to complain. I just want to treasure every single moment I have with you. The "pull" jolts my mind back into reality. My hand caresses over your smooth skin while my eyes takes every detail of your beautiful face.

You have to let me go. 

You nod your head slowly not looking at me. I gently place my lips on your forehead, closing my eyes, hoping that my tears will not fall. I try so hard to hold them back but I fail when you finally look up to me, cupping my face. I shatter and cry.

Yoongi, it's okay.  Now you're comforting me. My heart aches so much that it is making it hard for me to breath. It hurts so much knowing that I can't be with you pass this night. It pains me that after tonight I can no longer touch you, kiss you.

I'm already missing you. I cry harder, not hiding my tears from you.

Baby, please let's not cry anymore. You wipe both our tears away. I will never stop loving you. I will cherrish every single moment I had with you, treasure our memories together. You will always be apart of me.

I take a deep breath to stop myself from crying. I look at you, I feel my lips quiver as I try to say, You are my life......live! 

I start to feel the pull, my physical form is slowly fading. I hold you against me, my face on top of you head and my arms tightly wrap around you.

Sleep, my love. I pull the blanket over us. Let's sleep. You're tired, you need to get some rest. You need your strenght to face tomorrow.  I say as I kiss your head.

As if you know exactly what I mean, you hold me tight as well, burying your face on my chest. I can feel you inhale my scent like you are trying to make sure you always remember.

After some time, you fell asleep in my arms. My body has already faded but I can still feel you. I lightly touch your sleeping face when I tuck a strand of your hair beging your ear.

I love you for all iternity. I make sure that you are well tuck under the blanket before I looke out your window.  I look at the full moon and say Thank you for giving me tonight.  I look at you again when suddenly the moon's light starts to dim and that's when I know I have to go. I kiss your cheek and close my eyes as I feel myself completely fade away.