Secrets and Surprises

chapter 7

Niall's POV-

I stormed into my room, not expecting her to be there sitting on the bed...she had an old soccer tee shirt on and her blue shorts with white stripes on the side, she was facing the tele brushing her long wet hair, she must have just gotten out of the shower. It was like quarter past 10.

I tried to think of what to say before she noticed me there, my eyes focused on her right inner arm, mainly her wrist. Cut lines, very bold, definately not like she fell, they were too neat. My eyes started to fog up with tears. I dropped down on my knees and started hysterical crying. She turned around, dropped the brush and ran to me.

"Niall! What's wrong? Are you alright?" She asked.

"HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME?" I was yelling at her, her eyes filled up with tears.

"Morgan, I'm sorry i was just angry..." I reached out hand and rubbed in cirlces on her back but she pushed me away.

"I  WAS DOING IT FOR YOU, DIPSHIT!"

We were back to yelling...even though I didn't want to yell at her... She looked too innocent to yell at.

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DID IT FOR ME?" I put my head against the wall and slammed my fists against it.

"I DIDN'T WANT TO TELL YOU CUZ I KNEW YOU WOULD WORRY ABOUT MY STUPID PROBLEM WHEN YOU'VE GOT A BIGGER ONE TO WORRY ABOUT YOURSELF!  ANYWAYS YOU WOULDN'T WANT TO DATE A GIRL LIKE THAT, PEOPLE WOULD SAY I SEEK ATTENTION BUT I DON'T! YOU BARELY KNOW ME." She was right, I didn't but I did know somethings, and I wanted to be with her.

" YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH! AND KNOWING THAT WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU THE OTHER DAY WAS ALL MY FAULT, I HIT MY BREAKING POINT." 

I turned around on the wall and slid down it on my back, my knees up and my face burried in them..I hated to see her cry. Goddammit, I am such an idiot!

"MORGAN STOP IT!  It wasn't your fault! and you did all you could, you stayed with me that whole time, you didn't have to do that, you called for help when I needed it"

" I WASN'T BY YOUR SIDE FOR HOURS IN THE HOSPITAL, I WAS FOR 15 MINUTES UNTIL I LOST IT AND GRABBED THE SCISSORS! YOU THINK I WANTED TOO? "

There was an awkward silence and I climbed on to the bed, holding back tear and laid next to her, she faced away from me. She was still bawling her eyes out. I sat up beside her brushing her hair out of her face and into a pony tail, I wiped the tears from under her eyes and pressed my lips to her forehead and then layed next to her with my arms wrapped around her waist. We layed there together, wrapped up in eachother for a few minutes until I noticed she had calmed down a little.

"Heyy, shh, stopped crying. Look at me. Please?" She was facing me but her eyes wandered off.

I wiped a tear from her eye, "I didn't want to, I'm sorry," She said crying, alot. She was so beautiful.

"Morg, don't apologize. I want to help you." I said, pulling her closer to me.

"I won't ever do it again, trust me, I have absolutley no idea what I was thinking, to be honest i don't think I was thinking until i realized what i did." She wiped her eyes and shivered in closer to me. I sat up and ripped off my Navy blue jumped and slid it over her head, she snuggled into it.

We both laid back onto the bed, it was already past midnight. I stuck my pinky out to her, "Pinky promise?"

She wrapped her pink around mine, "Pinky promise."

"Morgan, can i ask you something?" This was it, I was gunna do it. I had to. I really liked her.

"Mhmm" She said, she was half asleep.