The Love We Seek

Prologue

Author's Note:

Welcome to The Love We Seek! But, before you start reading this story, I have some teeny tiny bit of things to tell you guys.

First of all, thank you so so so so much for deciding to read this book. This is my first story ever here in Wattpad and I can't assure you that it'll be good throughout.

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Samantha's POV

White walls, white ceiling, and the strong smell of medicine were the first things I noticed as I awoke from a very weird dream. My eyes adjusted from the bright light and first thing I saw is Maria's face. She is sitting on a chair, her head rested on her hands on my bed as she sleeps.

My heart shattered as I look at her. She had bags under her eyes, she's paler, and thinner than the last time I saw her. I move my hand to touch her, but stopped when she stirred. I stayed still hoping she'd go back to sleep, but her eyes opened and met my blue ones.

"You're awake!" She says, tears in her eyes as she repeated the same words for a few more times. I nodded my head at her. "Wait here! I'm going to call the doctor." She said as she hurriedly reached for the door and ran out to call the doctor.

A few seconds later, Maria came back with what I assumed as my doctor and a nurse. The doctor checked my vitals, while the nurse took notes.

The doctor then faced me after checking everything. "I'm glad you're awake, Sam." He said smiling at me.

I only stared at him, my brows furrowed as I try to recall what happened to me.

"You don't remember anything?"

I slowly shake my head.

"That's understandable. You were intoxicated when this happened, so you can't remember anything for now and you also suffered a mild concussion when you fell down. But, I assure you that you'll be able to remember everything in no time." He explained.

"How long was I out?" I ask my voice hoarse and a little bit croaky.

"You've been out for a few days and we're glad you're up. We consider this a miracle, since it was almost too late when they took you in. You've lost a lot of blood and we're glad one friend of yours matched." He explained. "Next time, don't do anything that can harm your health or life again, Samantha. Your psychiatrist will be here soon to check on you. And I will also inform your parents that you've woken up. That's all for now, I'll come back and check on you tomorrow."

Maria thanked the doctor and sat back down on her chair. She gave me a look. A look that read as "I'm disappointed in what you did", but her expression changed and now it read as "I don't blame you though. I'm sorry." I look down and touch my bandage covered wrist. And then, the memories came flooding back. A lone tear escaped as the events that night flashed before my eyes.

Alexander's POV

I groaned as I slowly open my eyes. It was blurry for a few seconds, but my eyes adjusted as I blink them. All I see is white, everything is white. No one was around. The room is dead silent. The only sound I hear is the beeping of the heart monitor nothing else.

The door opened, Chris came in looking like he was about to go crazy. Dark bags under his eyes, his hair was a mess, his shirt is crumpled, his slippers don't even match, he's paler than usual, and he looked really tired. Kurt and Matt followed. They don't look like Chris, but at they all looked equally tired.

"What the hell happened to all of you?" I ask them stopping myself from bursting into a laughing fit.

"You have the nerve to ask us that after everything, you f*cking bastard?!" Chris shouted.

"Chris, just calm down," Matt said holding onto him to stop him from doing anything.

I look down unable to look at them and didn't say anything. I made a mistake. I crossed the line I shouldn't have. Chris is disappointed in me, it's clearly written all over his face.

"No, this bastard needs this." Chris said as he pried Matt's hands away from him. "What the hell were you thinking, Alex?!" He shouted in frustration.

I sighed and ran my hands to my hair. I look straight into his eyes. "I needed to escape. Trust me, I tried not to. But, as I tried I became more tired. I already did everything, Chris." I say looking down. I shake my head and continued, "But, still it didn't work! And next thing I knew I only have one option left and did it without thinking."

Chris sighed. "But this is not the answer, Alex! And no, you are not alone. Matt, Kurt and I are here for you. The four of us are like brothers, why would you even think that you're alone?" He asks, looking into my eyes and searched for answers.

"Chris is right, Lex. You're not alone. We're always here for you." Kurt said.

They're right. I wasn't alone. The three of them are always there for me whenever I need them. They may not be the kind of guys you wanted to hang out with, but they are the guys who won't leave you all alone. They are there to back you up anytime you need them. But, I'm not looking for the love and attention of my friends. All I ever ask is my parent's attention, that's it. It may sound gay-ish for some of you, but fuck I just want to feel that I have a family. I became like this to earn their attention. I overdosed not by accident, it was intentional and they didn't even care. They are not even here to check if I was alive.