When we all left starbucks and walked back home we were all laughing and Jaeden had told me he would be leaving for filming soon so he could go film a movie in Florida and said he would stay in contact as much as possible I asked how long he said 356 days I could feel tears coming to my eyes and he said he had to go pack now I walked home silent with earbuds in my ears listening to pacify her because I also knew that the girl that hates me and i hate her told him I was only dating him for fame and I was worried he would try to get a new girlfriend and not come home I had so many thoughts going through my head right now I just need to go home and lay down I walked into the gate and shut the gate walked to the front door I was also happy my parents weren't home they are never really home its usually just me and my siblings here they only come home on special occasions because they work all the time when I got in I picked up Otter carried him to my room with me and layed down and just thought about Jaeden and how much I would miss him and how hard life is going to be without him I could feel myself start drifting off but I didn't want to sleep yet I wanted to just lay here and think about Jaeden I soon just put my phone on the charger and let myself go to sleep
The next morning..
I wake up really early and got dressed very quickly and did my makeup and brushed my hair
My outfit
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I thought it looked good so I left because today would be a hard day for me I would have to say goodbye to Jaeden I walked as fast as I could checking the time constantly on my phone and making sure I had time enough time to see Jaeden I soon arrived to his house I walked over to the doorbell and rang it while I held back tears as soon as I realizing that this would be the last time I rang this doorbell soon I could hear Jaeden's soft voice and whenever he saw me I could tell he was holding back tears he said he was leaving soon so he came outside and said all of his goodbyes and how much he will miss me
I asked him to promise to be back in 356 days he said I promise and with that he kissed me for the last time and pulled away with a sad expression on his face and said I love you Claire Sharer I gave him a slight smile of holding back tears and said i love you too Jaeden Lieberher and with that he turned around and left me standing there speechless honestly not knowing what to do its kind of a terrible feeling whenever you just watched someone you really do need in your life leave and not do anything about it I got a good look of the surroundings here because I would probably not be seeing this place for a while I turned around and walked to my house and walked in with tear e on my eyes Lizzy asked what was wrong and she followed me to my room after I had ignored her she said please tell me what's wrong I screamed at the top of my lungs JAEDEN IS GONE she said oh my where I said he left and he said he will come back in 356 days but I think he will end up staying and getting a new girlfriend and not ever text or call me or answer my calls or texts I told her it would help if she got Otter she went to get Otter and came back and sat down and I told her to leave she respectfully got up and left the room and shut the door behind her I jumped up and locked the door and walked back to my bed I decided to turn tv on and watch family guy which didn't help especially the fact that every time commercials would come on and there would be a IT commercial that showed Jaeden so that didn't help
I layed there for thrity minutes looking at pictures of me and jaeden and listened to kevin gates when one song came one that fit perfectly with my mood it was called Posed To Be In Love I decided to write down the lyrics on a piece of paper and pin to the wall by a picture frame with a picture me and Jaeden in it
I layed down in my thoughts wishing it was just a bad dream and I could wake up right now and look over to see Jaeden laying next to me and see his sweet smile and to hear his gentle soothing voice say I love you just one more time I wish I could be with him right now I heard my phone buzz it was instagram so I clicked on it I wish I never did because when I did it was Jaeden with a girl but the girl wasn't me and she didn't look like "just a friend" the caption of this photo was "I love this girl" with a kissy face emoji and I just couldn't believe what I had just saw seeing this disgusted me I could feel tears coming to my eyes I slammed my phone down on the nightstand beside my bed and screamed at the top of my lungs and my siblings all came to the door and asked what is wrong I told them to not come in and I don't want to see any people right now I grabbed otter and wrapped my arms around him and he layed there.........
I woke up and it was all a dream all of the pain and everything i was with jaeden and he gave that gentle smile......but i woke up
I looked around my room that was completely dark looking around for Jaeden and then realized that this was not just a bad dream this was reality I looked around and soon layed my head back down onto my pillow and thought of Jaeden and how mad I was at him I noticed on my instagram he was still active right now at nine o'clock and decided to screenshot that picture and there was a new one the girl was kissing his cheek i screenshotted that one too and sent them and asked him what these were it showed he was typing and then it sent his message said maddie zeigler I couldn't text him anymore I just wanted to die......
A/N
your skin is warm like an oven
your kiss is sugary sweet
your finger feel like cotton when you put your arms around me
