Born Villain

Chapter 14

"Look, we're already late to see a movie, would you please move." Harry snaps, 

"I already know what you're doing Harry, you want her, I want her, why don't you let the beautiful girl pick.." He says, "Go on, who do you want Ashleigh?!" 

"Harry." I say, my voice is small, I just want one normal day. 

Is that so fucking much to ask? Yes? No? 

Harry goes over to his brother, latching his hand onto his brothers throat. His brother is weaker, there is nothing in his power he can do to get Harry off of him. 

Harry drags his brother upstairs, then, I hear yelling. I look around the room and sigh. 

I wish this was easy, some part of me want's to go back home, to go back how it used to be. Megan and I must be the talk of the town now. I mean, they must know we've gone, in college, I was never late, and now, I've been missing for a few days, while Megan was known by everyone. 

I don't even know where Megan is now, she's probably still locked up. All of my friends will know that we're missing. They aren't stupid. I miss people. I miss everything, I miss the little cafe, the ice cream parlour. 

Is it bad to think I've been here for months when in fact it's only been a week, and part of the week I've been in hospital. 

I hardly know anyone, here, to me, they are all the same. But if I run, they will find me, and god knows what Harry will do. I'm scared, I'll admit it. I can't be like them, even though I shot someone through the head, I thought I was going crazy. 

I wouldn't of done that, I shouldn't of done that. 

I'm just an eighteen year old girl. A stupid one too. 

"Ashleigh, you ready?" Harry asks, I shake my head. I feel utterly broken, and I don't know why. 

"I don't want to go anymore, I just wanted one normal day."

"You still can-"

"No I can't, you don't understand, this is all fucked up, and it's hard for me to adapt to your lifestyle, to everything! I don't want to go out, I don't want to do anything, I just want to sit in my room and stare at the wall for god knows long, I can't pretened things are going to be normal when they aren't going to be." 

He turns me so I face him, I already know that a tear is running down my cheek, and I don't care.

"Ashleigh, what do you want me to do?" He asks, 

"Take me home, my real home." I say, "But I know you won't do that because I'll be seen as a threat to you, so nothing, I don't want you to do anything." 

I walk past him and into my room, 

"What's all this for? What's wrong?" He asks, I know he's right behind me, It all blurts out of my mouth and it's too late..

"Everything is wrong, I shot a guy, I killed someone, do you know what that's like for me? It's horrible, knowing that I killed someone, I don't know how you can do it.. I really don't. I just can't deal with this, all of it, I don't want this life, I don't want to be a murderer, but I am now. I just want to be myself, be the normal girl who has no one, who concentrates on her career and has nothing or no one stopping her. That's who I am Harry, I can't deal with this." 

"Well, I can't deal with your two sides, one minute you love it, one minute you hate it and you want to go home." He says, his voice raised ever so slightly, 

"I've got two sides? Look at yourself in the mirror, you can be a nice guy, then you can change into someone else. I don't love this lifestyle. I can't cope with it."