A Life To Read

chapter 4-horror

~no ones life is perfect, we are all faced with challenges and troubles~ Jinia

"Mom!" I called out, suddenly my eyes meet a pair of clothes on the floor, I could feel my heart beat racing and some fear as I took steps closer coming into the sitting room, my eyes widened as they met people making out, no not making out, they were having sex! Tears flowing down my eyes, realisation hitting me, that was the same man from yesterday, the same man who mom had sex with yesterday when I went to her room,but that man was not my dad,he stopped caring for me at the age of 13, plus we never had a dad and daughter relationship, he had other women and to make me feel better I kept on telling myself he is dead eventually I believed what I wanted, he caused me great pain as a child it ruined me terribly and that's one of my weakness,my dad although I never told anyone as I remember but I felt like I told someone but who.....

My mom however had a lot of men in our house some I only saw once and they always had sex in front of me when I used to sleep on the same bed with my mom, they always thought I was sleeping but I was awake the whole time, I'd always wake up in the middle of their session and scream and cry my eyes out, she never apologized and she always kept repeating it. I moved out of her room to my own. I had nightmares for years up to now, it ruined me even when watching TV, I hated every single men that stepped foot in our house... How could they do such in front of me? Can't they see me? Don't I have feelings? And another thing is,why can't she just get me a permanent new dad with my approval, instead of sleeping with all those people before my eyes? Don't I deserve a second chance? Why did they have to do it in front of me? And my mom never felt my pain or understood what was going on with me. I tried so hard to forget but it always happens and it hits me harder then ever. Although she tried asking me what was wrong,I always kept shut, she's my mom she's suppose to know my pain! Sometimes I doubt she's my mom.

Yesterday night just when I thought it ended, I came downstairs and found her with the same man I saw today, having sex on the couch, can you imagine? What would you do? Especially if you live in the same house with your daughter?... And there you go that's my nightmare, my big secret I've never told anyone, but Nathan seems to know, how? I don't know. He told me I was very emotional since I was 7,yes we literally grew up together and he knew every single thing. And he knows how I act when it happens.

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After staring at the scene blankly I spoke up "why do you hate me so much mom!" With a hurt expression, tears were flowing like a river from my now swollen eyes "hunny" she said with concern "don't hunny me, fuck you!", " show some respect you brat" the man replied, before mom could reply "I hope you die miserably, you can both go to hell for all I care" then I showed them a middle finger and ran upstairs, I could hear someone running after me but I quickly closed the door and ran under my blankets..

Loud sobs escaped my mouth and thoughts started rushing through my head everything came in my mind and I felt like ending my miserable, lonely life, I had no one to hug or turn to, I felt my head burning up and a terrible headache coming through, I felt like fainting....

After an hour of crying and total silence,my phone beeped a video call was coming through, it was Nathan, thank God. I didn't hesitate to answer and I broke in tears when I saw Nathan's face. His face changed into a concerned look and after seconds into a hurt expression. He spoke "it happened again,did it?" "Yes" I replied through sobs "please come take me away from here before I die" I couldn't stay here anymore I need space I need to get away from here. "Calm down,I'm on my way" Nathan answered loudly "get ready I'll be there now" switching off the phone. I know my mom would we hurt by this but she needs to realise her mistake, I'm tired I've tried so many times but, the pain is too much to bare.

I started packing everything valuable to me and everything I needed.After I was done it looked like I had packed for a month. But it didn't matter now I wanted to go away from here where all the terrible memories were....

~This chapter was so sad, I really hope it gave you an idea of Delaila's past. Please please please like and comment on my chapters so I know what my readers think. I'll be sure to write more chapters a bit slow since I have a lot going on at the moment,but please bare with me. Love you guys xoxo!❤😘~