When you're young there are monsters under your bed.
The type of monsters that can be chased away. By light or a single scream. Your Dad can always chase them away.
The same monsters under your bed...crawled up in your head... they are stronger and can't be defeated. They stay in your head no matter what.
The monsters in your head won't leave! You cant call for help, you can't scare them away. They will always stay.
You do as they say or you would be punished. The punishment isn't like you got when you were younger..
This punishment is beyond words.
It can come in many forms and shapes, but the thing that's punishing you is something that you would never of guessed.
IT IS YOU!
You are the one who's hurting yourself and the sad part of all of it is, is that you don't even know it.
The loneliness around you fills your mind with lies and made up stories, that only you can chose to believe it or to rather ignor it.
What can we even do..? After all we are just human, against our monster in our head.. that grow stronger every day.
A lot of people will rather judge you then to help you. All they think of you are probably"What the actual hell is wrong with you?" or "You are a fucking attention seeker"
They will never understand what you are going through.
The nights where you cry yourself asleep or to try and get your mind off of the thing that happens through day time by having sex.. drugs..cutting..pills..getting pleasure by seeing the pleading look from your victim you push and slowly breaking down every day? All that just to make yourself feel wanted in this cruel world we call home..where we're supposed to feel safe and loved?
Oh well what do I know?I am after all just human..
YOU ARE READING
The Truth Behind The Mask
RandomThis book consistes of short writings. Usually about what goes on in one's mind or feelings. Your choice to read it or not, but if you read it and don't like it please just stop reading the book. Thank you.
