Hello,
My name is Sierra and I am here to tell you all something. Back in 2015 I was in a dark time. My mental health was unbearable and through the roof. There was multiple family fights and I was so paranoid about what others though of me at school. I thought that self-harm wad the solution to help get rid of the pain. After one cut, little did I know that I would become addicted to cutting. I had cut the words fat, worthless, useless and ugly into my left arm. From October 2015 through January 2016 I cut until one of my classmates saw my cuts and told the school counselor. I soon started to attend outside counseling appointments to help with my mental health. I stayed clean for less than 2 weeks. Then I relapsed and started to cut on my thighs and stomach. Later in March my grandma saw my scars on my stomach and had told my mom. She them threatened to sell the 5 Seconds of Summer tickets she bought me for me to go see them on their Sounds Live Feels Live 2016 tour cause they were coming very close to where I lived. I had no choice but to show her my stomach bcuz I really wanted to go see 5SOS. I stopped cutting on my stomach, but not my thighs. Then on March 24th, 2016 I made the decision to throw away all the utensils I used to harm myself. I stayed clean for 5 months this time, then relapsed again. I cut this time on my right wrist, then moved to my ankles, my calves, my shoulders, my hips and yes even my own chest area. I did this on and off for about four more months until the best day of my life came. On December 11th, 2016 I stopped self-harm all together! I have been clean since and yes I still have the urges to relapse, but then I tell myself, "Do you really want all those months clean to go to waste?" I am proud of myself for making it this far. Not only did I cause myself pain, but I caused my friends and family pain caused they were upset to see me in so much pain. I was called a slut, a whore, ugly and not good enough, which only drove me into more misery and depression. I try to convince as many people as I can to stop or not attempt self-harm cause it doesn't help any. I know many of you here dislike RoadTrip. I am here to say that they have an inspiring song called Don't Hurt Yourself. The lyrics that speak to me most are, "The battle scars they ain't worth it/ But I don't wanna read between the lines/ I know at times it can burn you/
The ones who care they deserve you/
Just stick around there will be better times" Music has always been my escape. I am thankful for 5SOS, The Vamps, Why Don't We, The Script, James Arthur, Britt Nicole, Little Mix and more cause their music gave me hope that life gets better and that we are meant to have falls so we can get stronger. I am grateful for Why Don't We bcuz they gave me hope and a reason to live. I cannot wait to meet them soon! If anyone out there is going through thoughts of suicide or self-harm or anything else, don't be afraid to Dm me and talk to me. I am always here to talk! I hope my story inspires you! Please comment "❤❤" below if you took time to read my story!
