I'm disconnected and split in two. Nothing feels like reality and I'm sharing bodies with a 30 year old woman. There's two sides of me 13 year old and the 30 year old. Most of the time the 30 year old takes control and the 13 year old is sitting in the passenger seat obsessing over bands and other stuff, the 30 year old knows about this and tries to relate to them.
But they both decide to disconnect from reality because the 30 year old is driving and doesn't want to be in a 13 year olds situation despite the 13 year olds fight. And they also make my physical body ill as an excuse not to be in a 13 year olds situation.
Everything around me is blurred and dim nothing seems real the fight in my head has won over my consciousness so I can't concentrate on reality. My memories are real but they feel like dreams. Apart of me has created this fake reality because it's much better than real reality as there is no point as real reality doesn't seem real anyway.
There is much more in my brain but if I were to write it all down i would be able to write a whole book.
