06 / 09 / 2018
My dearest Jungkook,
This is my suicide note.
I never thought it would end like this.
I never thought I'd be holding your freezing hand tightly in mine and leaning my head against your shoulder.
I found your antidepressants in the bathroom cupboard above the sink, along with paracetamol.
When I looked into the mirror, I saw how the tears had stained my face.
I feel so empty..
I'm nothing without you, Jungkook
My hands are shaking so much, I'm so scared..
But I'm going to down them all - for you.
So as I lay here waiting to die..
I remember.. When we used to lay on the school fields by those huge trees that you loved to climb. I'd shout up for you to be careful and you'd laugh in return with a smile of mischief.
On those days, the sun was almost as bright as you. Almost.
We used to look up at the sky and point out what shapes the clouds had decided to take that day.
And we'd laugh at our childishness.
I wonder now if you missed those clouds as much as I do now
God I feel so so drowsy
I hope you've waited for me on the other side my love,
when we reunite..
We can be happy again
I lo ve y ou alwa
YOU ARE READING
Ten letters before I die (Taekook)
Romance"You used to love looking at the butterflies, you used to say I was just as delicate as one. But truth is, you were too."
