Ten letters before I die (Taekook)

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05 / 09 / 2018

Dear Kookie,

I visited the park after school today, I needed to get away from everything.
Things are getting too much since you've been gone.

I left late and it's getting dark, I'm not going home tonight - I can't— I.. I'm going to stay here.
Dads starting to slip back into old habits again..
He's gonna end up doing something stupid I can just see it - I don't wanna be around for that.

People seem to be adding more and more bad things to my nightmare of a life..
I can't trust anyone anymore, anyone except you.

Is this what you were feeling when you said you wanted to give up hope?
I feel so empty..

I'm writing this as I sit under our favourite tree, there's lots more flowers now though; I wish you could see them.
I bet they look exceptionally more beautiful under the moonlight.

I remember how you used to love coming here to enjoy the peaceful aesthetic of it all, silently watching the swans go about their day, hearing the soft chirps of sparrows above and the distant giggles of children who'd happily play from across the lake only for their parents to call them back to the picnic they shared.

I remember you telling me how much you love feeling the breeze run through your hair and clothes as you leaned back against this tree.
You said it made you feel as though you were utterly weightless - like you were a flower.

You used to love looking at the butterflies too, you used to say I was just as delicate as one.
But truth is, you were too.

I hope things have changed for you, I hope being on holiday has made you happier.

I want the best for you,

Love, Taehyung