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I need help

Okay... We all know that you only ever lead people on if you are a huge asshole. Because if you do lead people on, or have led people on with no remorse... I'm sorry... You are an asshole. Because.... I have to admit. I am an asshole. 

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Why I am an asshole 

When I was in 7th grade, I liked a girl... For two weeks. I told here this, made out with her, got my attention I wanted and then completely ignored her when she tried to talk about it with me. She eventually realized I was toxic and just left the "relationship".

Just so you know, this screwed with her a little bit and it wasn't a very good time for me to do this to her. I won't go into details but she ended up doing some stuff after this, and got into some issues. She is now doing so much better and has been with her new girlfriend for a little more than a year now and they seem to be very happy and in a great relationship.

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Why I need help

So, now that I am older, I had a crush on a guy for a few months, but never acted on it because I knew I would either be toxic to him, or he would be toxic to me. But he eventually confessed to me and I was deep in like. I won't say in love, because I wasn't ready for that commitment. The two of us both decided to not be a couple, but needless to say, our actions around each other got closer and less like friends and more like a couple. I assume...???

It went from

Holding hands - to - intertwining fingers and palm kissing

Side Hugs - to - Full front hugs and leaning on each other

Hearts during texting -to- winking, lenny, and kissy face... 

Basically SO MUCH FLIRTING xD

Now it was like this for about a month. Until recently, he text me and told me he was done. It was a fling, and he was done with me.  I went to school on Monday and ranted to a few of my friends and felt like total shit. I mean, I still do, and I can't seem to get over him. But I'm trying...

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Now for the big question

As all of this is still fresh in my mind, I started to begin to think. When is a fake relationship considered "Okay" if it every considered that at all? Does anyone know how to answer this? I kinda need some help