Words from the Heart..

Guilt

(Listen to song above. Also goes with this poem)

I know I seem strong
And I know I seem proud
But in reality I've been holding on for too long
And this depression is like a cloud

It comes and goes in disguise
And the roses begin to wilt
As my body decomposes with every slice with cries
And the wall of guilt is built

The guilt slowly kills me
But the carousel never stops turning
I soon don't realize what I'm doing isn't supposed to be
The fire in my body begins burning

The fire climbs all the way up to my head as I realize what I've done
The blood pours out everywhere
But I'm not moving as nothing can be undone
As the darkness takes over I take my last breath of air

But I don't see a light.
I open my eyes and all that I see now is a bed
Now it's more clear and I see that I lost the fight
I tried to leave and I failed and now I'm stuck in this  bond with the earth that can't be apprehended.

But I tried and I'll try again until I win this fight