It was late October when I decided that I wanted to make new friends. It's my first year in jr.high so I thought why not make the best of it. In band I look around, I wanted to find someone who looked like they wouldn't be terrified by someone asking them to start a friendship.
As I looked I knew that I didn't want to be friends with a girl. I wanted to make friends with some guys. Instantly a tall trombone player caught my eye.
I look over to my friend Jocelyn and say, "I want to approach this one person and be friends with them." With the never ending support I've always gotten from her she told me things I could say. Little did I know I would panic at that moment.
That day we were packing up stands and chairs so I took it as on opportunity,
"Hey!" I say hoping that I didn't seem strange. He looked confused.
"Hello!" He says without hesitation. I was caught off Guard thinking this person would ignore me. "Do you want to be besties." I blurt out because I didn't know what else to say.
At this point I as sure he was going to ignore me but I was wrong. He wanted to be friends I guess. Originally I wasn't going to actually go through with that but I guess somehow I did.
I was in a relationship at the time that quickly ended because I didn't like that person. I remember I ran out of my option class at the time due to stress. I didn't know that the brown eyed boy was in the class. As he walked in the halls he noticed me curled up in a corner crying. He asked me what was wrong and I felt like I could trust him. He told me personal things about his life, it made me feel better. Like I could trust him. So we talked for a while. After that day I felt like I had a friend in him.
I remember that day I thought to myself, "Do I like this brown eyed boy...."
Everyone had always thought that I liked any guy that I was friends with but that was becoming a reality with this boy. It scared me, yet I felt like I would get over it fast. Little did I know my feelings would quickly grow.
