As I got ready on January 16 I was shaking. I had many different thoughts in my head. I thought for sure he was going to say he didn't feel the same. It's not like I was asking him out. I was just telling the boy I like him.
As I got to school I went to the band room. I couldn't help but smile and think "this place is so amazing."
As my sister was there she asked my why I was so happy. I told her about my crush and the teacher looked at me and pulled me into a practice room. She gave me a long speech and told me to not be nervous.
I kept reminding myself of her words because I was nervous.
When I saw him at school that morning I gave him the note. I didn't want him to read it in front of me. I remember going to home room. My face was red and I wanted to scream. There were so many feelings.
*bell for lunch rings*
My head was spinning, I felt like I was going to throw up.
He was in the band room as I figured he always was. Jocelyn was there with me. We were both panicking thinking about what we just did.
When he was done in band I was in the corner of the band room in Jocelyn's arms. I was hoping that he wouldn't bring up that note, he was giving Jocelyn this speech about her crush and I was slowly calming down.
"Oh that reminds me I have your answer." He says. As my heart skips a beat I try to get up and walk away.
*Jocelyn grabs me so I can't get up.*
I didn't ask him out but I guess this is what's going on now.
As I bury my head in her arms I hear a "yes."
The amount of relief but confusion I had was terrible. At that moment I felt happy. I haven't felt that In a long time and it's crazy but he made me genuinely happy just by his smile.
It was unexpected but I loved the feeling. I guess I just like the adrenaline rush.
