Trying to move on seems impossible.
When band camp rolled around I wanted to scream it scared me. I never like to eat in front of people and the fact that I would see the brown eyed boy for three days just kind of made me anxious.
I've tried to get over him so many times and you know what I don't think I can.
Granted there have been the few crushes but none of them compare to the feeling I get when I see the brown eyed boy. I could go on a list about how much I love about that little bean...
I know I'm way in over my head.
There's times where I have an urge to avoid him but yet something about him keeps pushing me back and it sucks. I feel trapped inside a black hole of him.
It like my emotions are spinning around my head.
I'm not okay (I promise).
I'm sorry brown eyed boy but ....
I love you,
And I'm not going to stop....
