Pieces Of Him

LOVE From Your Toy Computer

Songs to listen with the chapter:

Tom's Diner – Suzanne Vega, DNA

rockstar – Post Malone, 21 Savage

Crazy – Gnarles Barkley

The next couple of days was spent in agony. Not only was my shoulder in pain but the things that the psychic said about this man I was destined to be with was almost nothing like Josh. Was this a sign that we weren't meant to be together? Something she said did go with a medium that Josh saw.

"This man, he will be your protector. He will be the reminder that separates reality from your profession but be a part of your work", Logan's words rang in my head.

When Josh saw a medium he said that spirits were after me, and that Josh was my protector that scared them off.

Josh always looked out for me and I for him. He is also the reason why I haven't lost my mind after so many years on YouTube. He and my family were the reminders that my job wasn't everything and that if push came to shove, they would always be there to catch me. I knew that this man must be Josh and dreams were messing up his face into someone I subconsciously saw on the street. Or the woman could be completely lying to me. Who really knew.

"Colleen, dreaming about your mystery bae?" Kory said in a sing-song tone.

"Kory, not so loud Josh might hear you. And get insanely jealous over someone who might be him or someone who doesn't exi-".

"Don't say doesn't exist, because he does. Didn't you say that she knew things that you haven't told your family or me", Kory said in a now hushed tone.

"I just don't want to start another fight. We have been fighting non-stop and I just don't want to start another one. Yet, what if this person that the psychic described is Josh and I saw glimpses of the future and this is just a rough patch we are having", I said hoping.

I sank into the couch further. I then opened my twitter and wrote out a tweet.

Why can't I know who he is-

I stopped typing and deleted the tweet. I just need to focus on my work, I connived myself. I walked up to my office and started to work on the Joshleen Tour that Josh and I came up with. I just sat there at my desk and watched a blinking cursor on an open word document and my mind just faded away...

***

"Colleen..." the familiar voice from yesterday called me.

"Yeah", I responded.

"You said you were working on a song for your main channel..." He trailed off reminding me of my train of thought.

Why do I know what he is talking about, I thought to myself.

"Yeah, Parkers song. I did one with Bailey when she was 3 and she gave perfect lyrics to work with, but Parker just gave me scattered thoughts going everywhere. I really don't know what to do with it. Maybe I should try again or maybe- "

"Don't say it", He said cupping my left cheek.

I looked up and frowned, "I just don't know what I'm doing anymore. My views are dropping. Maybe no one wants to watch me anymore..."

"Of course they do. I got so many tweets just the other day; asking about this song, because you mentioned it in a vlog. That doesn't sound like people who are tired of you or don't want to watch you. It sounds like a little community you have created, supporting you. They all love you...and so do I", He said leaning into me slow.

His hand on my cheek felt so right and his hand in mine just felt right. I melted at his touch and slipped into an intoxicated state, slowly drinking him in. I was filled with so many emotions. Sadness, because I felt like a complete failure as a Youtuber, happiness because I was in front of the man I loved with all my soul, and just wanting. Wanting to stay in this moment forever. Wanting to kiss this man. Wanting to know him, knowing my source of future happiness.

We slowly inched closer both drunk on our proximity. He pulled me closer until or lips were almost touching. His breath brushing against my lips. Oh, please kiss me, I thought biting my lip. He rested his head to mine and spoke.

"Let me help you with your script and kill this song", His soft lips said forming a sexy smile.

He then moved a strand of hair away from my face.

"Colleen, my fraggle, COLLEEN!" Josh said stroking hair away from my face waking me up.

"Oh, Josh did I fall asleep?"

"Yes, you did love. Why don't we get you to bed? You had quite the day".

I got up from my desk chair and turned off all of the lights in my office and the lights down the hall to our room. I got into bed with Josh when an idea popped into my head.

"What do you think about making a song from what parker says?"

"He's so young...you won't get any word for word lyrics from him like you did with Bailey...maybe set that back for a year or two"

I forgot my idea and I spent the rest of the night laying in the arms of the man of my dreams. Or was I ?