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Augustus Waters- The Stiletto Heel

        The pain was becoming to much to handle.

        My chest felt as if Peter Van Houten was standing on it wearing a six-inch stiletto.

        The heel was slowly sinking down into my chest, and soon, it would hit my heart. When that happens, my infinity will end. I will fade into the pointless void of oblivion. 

        My greatest fear. 

        But maybe it wouldn't be so bad. Maybe... Just maybe, I could handle the oblivion, if it meant that Hazel Grace got a longer infinity. The infinity she deserved.

        She was like a star that, as far as humans could tell, would still be burning bright, even long after she had imploded in on herself.

        She would stay as a shining ball of light long after I'm gone.

       The stiletto heel sunk deeper into my chest and I could barely groan as the pain intensified. 

       I missed Hazel Grace. 

       She had become my always. My forever. She was the infinity that I would never get to finish.

      But hopefully someone else would.

     I had already sent my letter to Peter Van Houten, wanting my last heroic act to make Hazel happy. I had wanted to go out with a bang. To go out with people always remembering me for being courageous in the face of death, sacrificing myself for others so they could live.

     I didn't want to be just another casualty in the battle of life like so many others before me. That's what Hazel tried to prevent. She tried to prevent me from being another casualty. But, maybe she was the casualty. 

    Because, let's face it. That's what life is. Not cancer. Not osteosarcoma. It's life. Dying is a side effect of life, and cancer is a side-effect of dying. Cancer takes thousands of casualties a day. Tens of thousands a week. Millions a year.

          It's just a cycle. A cycle of numbers. Some have more numbers than others, and mine were running out. 

         The pain in my chest had become so much worse, if that was even possible. 

        I wanted to move. I wanted to do something.

        Literally anything. I would even deal with playing basketball for hours, as long as I could get out of this bed and do something.

       I wanted to go back to Amsterdam. The Anne Frank house, where we had our first kiss. The Oranjee where we had our first champagne. The funky Bones park, where we had those awful dutch cheese sandwiches. 

        I wanted to go back to when everything was perfect. When the pain was small enough that we could just forget about it for a few hours and just be us. Just be together. 

         I felt a tear roll down my cheek as I thought about it. 

        I was lying back in the pale white hospital bed, surrounded by the pale white sheets, and the pale white walls, staring at the ceiling. The tear slid off the side of my cheek, dampening the pillow. Many more tears followed, and I couldn't blink them away. It hurt too much. 

        Silent sobs wracked my body, but I still stared rigidly at he ceiling. Every ragged breath I drew hurt worse than the last. 

         The heel became bone crushing, and it had sunk so low it was almost at my heart. 

       I wanted to breathe, but air was coming in short spurts. My vision started going, and I felt myself slipping out of consciousness. 

       My lungs screamed, begging for a single breath, and my chest was on fire. 

     Hazel Grace, don't give up. Make your infinity much bigger than mine, Okay?

     Okay.

     Okay okay okay okay

    Oka-------------------------------

I guess some infinities really are bigger than other infinities...

A/N: (Not really edited) This broke me to write, holy cow. It broke a few other people too. I'm currently begging Michaela not to delete this. 

   I watched TFIOS last night at  about 2 in the morning, and, because no one was around, I almost sobbed. I prefer Augustus in the book to Augustus in the movie, but I will say that Ansel Elgort is a fantastic actor. 

   Alright, that was kinda short, sorry guys, but I'm gonna go beg Michaela some more. 

 She's working on an update on something right now, so look forward to it!!

Until next time!!

~Austin