Stories Behind Every Exo Songs

My Peter Pan

Please listen to "Peter Pan" while reading this.

"His Dairy"

❣I BRUSH OFF MY WORN OUT DIARY
SUDDENLY IN THE OPENED PAGES, CLEARLY
YOU ARE THERE, YOU STILL REMAIN THE SAME
I REMEMBER THE PICTURES THAT I FORGOT
SMALL TREMBLINGS GUSH OUT OF MY BODY
IT'S A BIT SAD THAT I CAN'T
GO BACK TO THOSE TIMES ❣

I was looking through my old stuffs and suddenly a dairy fall on the ground making a great noise. I leaned down to check what it is.

When I saw its the dairy I used to write in my college life, a smile formed on my face. I miss those days and miss her.

[29.01.2014
I saw her for the first time today. She was kind and beautiful. She even smiled at me. I felt something is jumping against my chest. Oh that's my heart. Is this the feeling when someone likes someone?]

I smiled to recall all those memories yes the first day of her college. I was very much happy that we share the same college. Soon I found out she also lived in my city.

[04.05.2014
Dear dairy I feel like she caught me staring at her today. I don't know what should I do next. My feelings for her are growing everyday but I can't get the enough strength to tell her about my feelings. What if she rejects my feelings. It's not like I can't bear that cause actually that's what I am doing for two months. My feeling is one sided.]

I sighed when I recall that moment when I proposed her no actually I wasn't that brave that time. I just told her about my feelings.

[09.11.2014
Dear dairy today was the day I told her about my feelings. She was confused. I was nervous. She wasn't saying anything and already my heart was breaking. I knew her from her first day and I noticed that she really doesn't feel comfortable to talk with the boys and specially after some boys teased her. I was so upset that that time I couldn't stand for her. But I want to protect her but will I ever get that right to do? She was about to leave me there alone in street on her way home but I grabbed her by her hand. Yes I touched her for the first time today and she looked at me with fear. I immediately let go of her. Shit Sehun you made a big mistake. That's what I didn't want to see. Seeing her afraid of me was killing me. She left me then alone with my broken heart. Now she thinks I am like those boys. I can't take this. Dear dairy how can I make her believe that I really love her?

❣I'LL GO LOOKING FOR YOU TO NEVERLAND
FOLLOWING TINKERBELL SENT BY THE MEMORIES ❣]

[10.11.2014
Dear dairy,
Today I was waiting for her to come. I want to say sorry and need to explain whatever happened. I love her and I can't see her like this. But she was late today. Well at least she came. I sighed in relief. I thought she wouldn't come because of yesterday. I was waiting for the class to end. I was standing outside of the gate. Finally she came out. She saw me but ignored me. I know why but I followed her. I called her name. She stopped and turned back. I also stopped. I was trying to speak up but my whole system wasn't working.

Finally I spoke up.

"Listen Nayeon. I really love you. Don't misunderstand please. I didn't mean to hurt you trust me."

"Listen Sehun I understand that was a mistake but"

I got a hope when she said that wait what but? Well I am happy at least she doesn't think me like those guys.