The Valentines Day Massacre

Ch.1) The White Bear

        I walked into school on a Thursday morning with a smile across my face i had the perfect Valentines Day gift for Pepo, i knew exactly what he wanted he has been talking about since the beginning of December...well it's not exactly what he wants, but it's all he's gonna get for a awhile. I was so lucky to have him as a boyfriend, what girl got the chance to be with an extremely popular guy, that was known all over the school, and the good thing about it is that he was humble about it and he was still one of the most awkwardest person that i know, which was perfect for me because i was awkward and weird.  He probably got me something amazing too!! We just got out of a really bad situation and things were finally starting to get better.

        The month before he had left me for another girl named Hannah.  I told him to do it though.  I knew she made him happy and i knew he had feelings for her, i had actually known for awhile, i just always tried to believe it wasn't true, but deep down i knew he Loved her.  After she had rejected him, he came back to me... I don't know why i took him back, but i did and i know he still likes her, but i'm not to worried about it. He said he loved me and that he didn't know what he had until he lost it and i believed him, he treated me like a queen and i knew that he would never hurt me.

        I walk into the locker room halls where we usually meet to talk and of course other people were in the hall. People were walking in and out of the locker rooms i waited for awhile and he wasn't there so i went into the girls locker room to get his gift ready.  I walk in and see a few girls talking and they quiet down as soon as they see me walk in.

        "Hey Ren" I said as i awkwardly came in and set my stuff down.  "Hey Brandi" Ren said in a slow unsure way.  "What's goin on?" I asked looking around.  Another girl in there looked at me with a sad face "Did you hear about Pepo and Hannah?" Macie said.  There was a long silence when i looked at all the girls hoping one of them would explain it already.  Just by the look in their eyes, i could tell this news was gonna break my heart, I left the locker room with my heart beating fast, i could feel myself start to sweat and i had the feeling of throwing up burning in my throat. I walked into the gym, i needed to gather my thoughts.

        I knew he still liked her but i thought he was hiding it and trying to get over her, but if people are able to notice and still see it then obviously he has been showing affection to her. "WHY AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU!!" I yelled into the empty gym air, allowing the echo to ring in my ears. My heart was pacing and i could feel my head start to shut down, finally to keep my cool i collided my fist with wall...it felt good, i started to beat the walls. I smash the walls until i was sure i dislocated something in my hand.

        "HELL NO MAN" I heard Pepo say while laughing, i could recognize his laugh from a thousand miles away. He had the smooth, but raspy, low laugh that every girl loved. Maybe I could talk to him and he could explain himself. I started to walk toward the doors that lead to the locker room halls, I peered through the door to make sure he was in there.

        "Here Hannah" Pepo said handing Hannah a big white teddy bear. "Awww thank you Pepo" She said with a big smile.  She took the teddy bear in both hands and held it close to herself.  Pepo showed a beautiful broad smile that i had never seen...I never made him smile like that.

        "SON OF A BITCH" I yelled still on the other side of the doors. I turned around and started yelling and screaming at the top of my lungs. I punched and kicked the walls and again with such anger i was surprised i could be so mad. "Pull yourself together Brandi" i whispered to myself. "stop crying, go talk to him calmly" i said taking deep breathes. "Just be calm."

        I walked into the locker room halls, with a sick feeling in the stomach. Pepo walked out and looked at me as if nothing was wrong. He had another big white teddy bear in his hand. "Here" he said throwing me the teddy bear. I caught it and looked at it...it was the same teddy bear he gave Hannah. What an ass.

        I threw the teddy bear back as soon as possible. He caught it and looked confused. "I don't want that." i said looking at him as if he was the stupidest person alive. " I saw you  give Hannah a teddy bear, what the fuck is the matter with you?" I asked him trying to look in his eyes. "I was just being friendly." He said gritting his teeth. " Wow that is pathetic" I said rolling my eyes.

        He tried to walk away he opened the boys locker room door, I stepped in front of him and slammed the door shut. "THAT'S BULLSHIT!!" i said releasing some anger. All you heard after that was a group of the 8th grade guys go "Ooooh". To be honest it completely enraged me. I didn't know what to do with myself, maybe i should just give up and walk away...it's not like he would come after me anyways.

        "Pepo...why the hell would you do this?" i said on edge of crying. He just gave me a blank expression. "I just gave it to her as a friend." he said as if nothing was wrong with it. He had to be the most pathetic person on the face of the earth. "I thought you loved me" i said wanting to scream. "Why am I not good enough for you? You're a fucking asshole!"

        He looked at me with shame and disappointment "You are good enough, why do you keep saying you're not?" He said looking at me questioningly.  I looked at him with a blank expression "I don't know, maybe cause you said I was your dream girl and that I was perfect, but yet you still managed to find another to leave me for!" I said with anger in my eyes and a few  tears. He took a step away from me as if I was about to blow up.

        "Look Brandi... I Love You, and I'm sorry I left you and I'm sorry I gave her a teddy bear!" He said obviously getting annoyed and pissed off. I looked at him with my arms crossed not taking the crap. He had i carefree expression and a smart ass smirk on his face. I looked at him amazed and i realized this kid dosn't give a shit. "You don't even care, do you?" I said. He just shrugged his shoulders "I don't anymore." He lazily said.

        "Wow." That was all i managed to get out...was 'wow'.